this pain

i wrote this in study hall

this pain inside me that i work so

hard to numb is like

a stabbing,tearing,cold murder

an invincable probing

a restricting suffocation

a vengeful ripping of every

perfect

precisely placed

tiny

wire stitch

vigorously trying to hold my heart,

expanding with the immense force of pain,

together

 

funny,

how one loose thread swiftly

unravels a whole being

 

until they're just a mixture of fragments

twitching,unearthed on the freezing ground

waiting to be shoved back into

the warped,black hole of time

and forgotten about once again

 

this pain is my fate and my destiny

 

this pain will overtake me

 

this pain will be my end