Smile Through The Pain

I've gotta smile through the pain,

to get to the sunshine you get through the rain,

And I dont know if I've got this or I've gone a bit insane

'Cause I blink away the tears, I need a hopeful outcome

But every thought that can cross my mind is how come?

My demons seem to be something I can't outrun,

Outdone yourself you did, you did a number on me,

That's why I can't decide to keep you here or let you free,

I'm not sure that good is something you can be.

My thoughts wont stop, the pain wont quit,

How you could even do this is I just can't get.

In need of mental release I'm about to have a fit

But your words wont release me, they travel through my mind.

I knew that this would happen I wish i could rewind.

I guess this is what i get for trying to be kind.

I put in all my effort, i always try my best.

When i saw that you were different, i put you to the test.

It was all a lie, you were just like the rest.

But it hurts cause i see something better,

I know if you could stay that guy that we could be forever.

If the evil part of you was gone we could get through anything together.

But you're selfish you're paranoid when under pressure,

Your love for me is so unsure 'cause its something i can't measure.

I wish my love for you was something that you'd treasure.

It hurts 'cause now i dont know thats real.

I know what's in my heart but i dont know how you really feel.

If I believe you and you lie i dont know how I'll heal.

I guess I'm just confused, I dont know what to think.

My hopes and dreams I had for us are draining down the sink.

And everything has gone so quick its like a blink-

Of time, between us. I thought that we could make it.

I keep uncovering more lies It'll be too hard for me to fake it.

My heart hurts so bad I just can't take it.

You litterally broke it, my body's shutting down.

While I'm silently breaking you're not even around.

I've been feeling so lost i doubt I will be found.

The end is coming nearer, I think you can see it too,

I don't want to do the things i have to do.

After everything that's happened I'm still in love with you.