Plans

Never did I realize that I was holding back,

Holding in,

Holding out,

For someone who would only disappoint me.

I've only come to see now how I'm reeling off track,

From my present, my future, and my past.

I had a plan you know,

And this certainly wasn't it.

I thought this was what I wanted until I saw your true colors,

not calming blue nor happy yellow

But angry red and selfish black.

Not sure where to go now,

How to end or continue where I stand.

All I'm really sure of,

Is this was never in my plans.