Cognitions

tombstones never felt so good

before they toppled on my Rome

worryworryworryworryworry

that my brain could never be…

vexation follows me

as heartbeat races like trampling horse hooves in my head

you were there

showing me the way

guiding me through the clouds

as sound never had meaning

the sky  burst into black dots

framed in the fear of a once dead mind

high

was never so high

i flew like a jet plane

sweating out desire

desire to just forget

speeding like comets

crashing into my own body

over and over and over

fear smashed its way

like a train off the track

stampeding the woeful bodies of onlookers

until the back of my head burned

cooking my brain

set aflame with the entire

collective reasoning of the viewers

the most harrowing epiphany of deadly fervor

the worthless sounds I emoted

the death I think about, yet fear

could not save me from annihilation

so I question and clean

off the little molecules that might harm me

all the while infested with larva

spewing black letters

into the grassy knoll’s of my perception

the germs of the mind

that make my vision crease and break

like pottery

please don’t shatter it

it only got worse when she left

i fell like a million china pieces

splintering their way into my subconscious

transmission shifting gears of thought

over teleprompter semen

never good enough for them not to leave

so I tear apart my mind

bit by bit

loving self loathing

till I collapse into the sprinkle of

christmas lights and grease

its odor on my clothes

with the ashes and gasoline

everything around me burns

i see the grass

i feel the dew

wonder if I could love again

what the warmth of lovers eclipse might feel like

when the gods who shook and rattled

threw lighting from the sky

and everything went black

before creating light