Dead Inside

She begins each day with slipping out of bed

She closes her eyes tightly and wishes she were dead

she pulls out the sweater that cover her scars

dreaming of running away somewhere far

She smiles with all her friends

only she knows that it is pretend

the familiar excuse that she already ate

her body is shriveling at a fast rate

she goes home and is forgotten

by parents that think shes rotten

she hides away in her room

the razor blade will be her doom

the metal bites at her thin wrist

her blue eyes start to mist

she tries to remember when she was not miserable

but then again her life has always been pitiful

she is standing against the whole world

her heart has been hurled

against the walls

that she has built ever so tall

she lays in bed

hoping this time she will be dead

but sh knows she will 

only have to start things all over again