Midnight

She feels like screaming

But her throat is dry

Deprived of ice water

For at least an hour

Or two or three or four...

 

She shivers

But not from the cold central air everyone

Insists on blasting

Even though the weather today

Isn't like how it was last week...

 

She's curled up in a ball

In the far left corner of her room

Silently rocking back and forth

A slave to whatever is

Running through her mind right now...

 

She's terrified.

 

Scared.

 

Completely

Freaked

Out.

 

She's treading new waters

And the unknown ignites a fear

From deep inside her-

A fear of falling for him

Of letting him in

And handing over her heart

Giving him the power to

Shatter her.

 

Other fears rise

To the surface

Away from the dark abyss

They've been hiding in:

 

She's terrified of opening her mouth

And choking out the words

That will change

Everything

Between them.

 

She's terrified of finding out

That all she is to him

Is a friend

Nothing more-

Never anything more.

 

She's freaked out

Because things seem to be

Going right for once

And she has no idea

How to handle it.

 

Not.

One.

Bit.

 

 

- june7,2010

Author's Note

thoughts are appriciated :)