Off white blank
expanse that reminds me of me
every morning
when I open my eyes and try to
remember the black of the inside of
my eyelids, spent all night staring at them
and wake to this surface my
mind likes to draw on
half forgotten dreams of
foreign bodies and shores distant
cliff faces dark waters and mountains I
need to drag myself up
windows I can’t reach, car crashes
and bridges I can only jump
down from
twitchy and uncomfortable
I’ll shut this body off again
for a while to wonder where
they come from
words floating around ahead in
well formed sentences I have trouble
catching, looking up to find but
they’re gone again
and then I remember to blink and
I’ll notice a new mould spot on
my ceiling that wasn’t there yesterday
when I lay here doing the same thing,