For I Fell in Love

My chest- no, my heart hurts,

It pounds against my chest painful,

Unable to contain my whirlpool of emotions,

Sad, angry, heartbroken, sick, and tired

sad because I helped you go,

Angry for not stopping you,

Heartbroken as I watched you fall in love,

Sick of not being noticed, 

Tired of getting myself hurt.

I was there at your beck and call,

I slither my arms around you,

Comforting you when you needed me,

It was me who dried up your tears,

It was me who cheered you up,

Yet it meant nothing to you,

While it meant everything to me,

But I don't blame you,

For it is my fault to begin with.

I knew your heart belonged to another,

Your goofy smile belonged to her,

So did your caring heart,

And big warm hand,

You were never mine,

I wasn't meant to walk beside you,

But only to support you,

Like the great friend I am.

So why does it hurt so much,

I knew that you were never going to look at me,

With those same eyes that you look at her,

You only see me as a friend, 

I didn't ask for this tortured feelings,

I didn't want to fall for you,

It was only meant to be platonic,

Yet here I am withering,

Watching you be happy.

To tell you the truth,

I didn't realize that I was in love with you, 

Until it was too late,

You were already with her,

And I was standing there helplessly,

But I accept this,

We weren't meant to be.

I can only whisper that I love you,

So you are not able to see my feelings.

Author's Note

sometimes being friendzoned sucks and love hurts.