I'm not ready

Not being ready to fall in love again

I'm not ready..

I'm not ready to feel butterflies in my stomach at the thought of someone

I'm not ready to have someone on my mind 24/7 again 
I don't want to think of someone day and night

I'm not ready for the sound of anyone's name to be the reason behind my smile
I don't want to look at anyone and shake my head saying I hate you, but really meaning Gosh I love you
I'm not ready to hand my heart over to anyone 
i'm not ready for my heart to beat rapidly, or my head to spin, to spend everyday longing to talk to you.

I don't want to go through this again

Through the motions of falling

Someone becoming the center of my world
The reason for my happiness

But my heart seems to have a mind of it's own.

While my head's screaming no

My hearts running full speed ahead

Right into the trap, 
No caution, No brakes.
And i can't slow down.

My head's holding me back

But my heart's dragging me forward

My logic is cautioning me 

But my feelings are saying take the risk

I'm not ready 

But the question is will I ever be