Earnestly Yours

I won't get you back.

I want to feel loved.

I want to be loved by someone.

I'm unbearably lonely.

And it hurts...

because it wasn't always like this.

A large part of me is waiting,

Unable to cope with the saudade.

"I know she'll return" is what I tell myself.

Yet, the days turned into months.

And the months, turned into years.

I've crossed the country looking for you in someone else.

I won't find that.

So it's time that I say goodbye.

As lonely as I am...

I just don't want to hurt anymore.

Wherever you are, 

I hope that you're happy.

I hope that you are content.

I hope someone else filled the shoes I was unable to fill.

I'm sorry I wasn't  everything you hoped for.

I'm sorry I didn't try my best. 

I love you. 

I miss you, dearly.

I was earnestly yours,

until I wasn't anymore. 

 

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

you do really cut it lose with the personal feelings, and yet manage to keep it relate-able for others

j.

[redalia]

this feels very personal and intimate, i appreciate the truthfulness in your poem. a beautiful portrayal of loneliness and longing