In the Midst

This poem was written while I was in the hospital, and everything I knew was changing all over again.

Everything will be different.

I can never handle change.

I loathe my soul for causing this.

Love- he told me not to,

but I never listen to reason.

My mistakes are always fatal.

The mind never handles it well.

Depression follows every choice I make.

Bleeding, breaking, self-destruction

It's hard to function when all I can see

Are the broken pieces of my old life

In front of me. 

Fumbling, knees scraping,

trying to collect what's left of my home.

Trying to recreate what once was my throne.

Now I am left alone.

The spirits I captured inside the glass,

escaped from my grasp.

They cannot be caught with bloody hands.

Diamonds persuaded me,

now I walk among stone.

Face my fears with a heart of stone,

stoned.

You can't break what never existed.

You can't take what was never mine to begin with.

Author's Note

I wrote this in the mental institution, so its pretty emotional. A lot of memories are in this poem.

Reviews

[hayleee.]

This is a very beautiful piece of writing. You truly reflect your emotions at this point in time, very saddened by feeling alone.
Though you must realize that you may feel entirely lonesome, but you are not the only one who feels this true feeling of emptiness. Thus making you not alone.
Keep writing, lovely. It's a wonderful way to have other people experience your thoughts in the most of intimate ways.

[wizardlypoet8]

Thank you so much! c:

[fierceauthor]

Girl u are a true POET/ARTIST AND VIVD TRUTH...keep up the outstanding writing and remember always say what you feel!

[sassy grizzly bear]

very powerful I love the way you rhymed the words and how it came together

[Bui]

It goes to prove that age holds no meaning when it comes to pain, and our expressions of it. This poem could stem from someone who's lived decades upon decades of emotional desolation. I am sorry that you had to go through what you did, but then... it inspired you to write in such a way that I am sure plenty of people would relate to as to not feel so alone.

Keep writing. I am definitely looking forward to reading more of your work.

[youngkingkwan]

This is such a raw piece. You can feel your pain through your writing and that is hard to accomplish. Well done!

[J.A. Darling]

This is a very emotional and touching poem. It reminded me of a very difficult period of struggle in my life and the journey I took to rebuild. I especially love the verse

"Fumbling, knees scraping,
trying to collect what's left of my home.
Trying to recreate what once was my throne.
Now I am left alone."

Definitely know that feel. Love this poem.

[wizardlypoet8]

Yes, I feel like that verse is the one that captured my emotions most... Thank you, c: