Waking NightmareA Chapter by Zoey BalderstonChapter 11 of Banished for LoveI maneuver my way home in a daze, weaving through the trees
purely by instinct. I step through the familiar front door and up the stairs to
Janie’s room. I don’t bother turning on her bedside lamp, what with the
moonlight pouring in. I pull back the thin white curtains and push the window
open as far as it will go, allowing the light breeze to blow across me. I lean
out the window, closing my eyes for a moment, enjoying the serenity of the
night. I turn back to the darkened room and collapse into Janie’s love
sack, an item I had considered stealing away to Jeremy’s house, but he already
has one in his room I can use. Thinking of Jeremy slams me into another wall of
guilt. I had spent the entire day, alone, getting to know another
guy. How was I going to explain this to him? Who says you have to tell him? A dark voice from
within inquires. I ponder this. The voice does have a point, it’s not like I
owed him an explanation, not really. But a lighter voice wonders how could I
lie to him about something like this? As I ponder, I slowly drift off to sleep.
A dream plays out in front of me, almost like a movie. Though I seem to be
invisible, as if I’m a ghost, to all others in the dream. Before me is a dark battlefield with foreboding
thunderclouds lurking above. It appears to be dusk atop a rocky plateau. Fallen
warriors litter the ground, dead or dying. In the distance, I see many small
battles between two opposing sides, but it’s the one closest to me that I focus
my attention on. Two warriors, seeming equally matched in skill and strength,
are locked in a fight to the death before me. As they spin and thrust their
swords, trying to make as well as avoid contact, I notice each has a pair of
wings protruding from slits in the back of their armor. One of the warriors has
the pure white feathery wings of a stereotypical angel. The other has black
skeletal demon-esque wings. They remind me of yin and yang; black and white,
good and evil, perfectly balanced. Somehow, both warriors seem strangely
familiar, though I can’t quite put my finger on how or why. As I watch, mesmerized by the dance-like battle, one of the
warriors cries out, “She will be mine!” and buries his blade deep into the
other warrior’s chest, killing him instantly. I scream in anguish for the
fallen warrior, but before I can discern which side had triumphed, I am ripped
jarringly from the dream. I wake with a pounding heart and tear-filled eyes. *** Jeremy’s Point of View I wake with a start, a featherlight whisper across my mind
makes me feel as though something is very wrong. I silently rush out of my
house, careful not to alert my parents to my departure, and over to Kelsey’s.
Still following this instinctual feeling, I enter Kelsey’s house, heading
upstairs. I hear quiet crying as I pass by one of the bedrooms, so I turn back
and push open the door. Kelsey is there, curled in on herself sobbing quietly.
Without saying a word, I walk over to sit beside her, pulling her gently into
my arms and rocking her lightly. “Shh, shh,” I croon, trying to soothe whatever may be
troubling her. “It was such a t-terrible nightm-mare,” she says, attempting
to control her tears. “Shh, it’s okay, you’re alright. It was only a dream,” I
say, running my fingers through her hair. “When d-did I become such a cr-crybaby,” she stutters,
trying to lighten the mood. I smile. She sniffles and lightly kisses my bare
chest, near the base of my throat. My entire body quivers at the gesture and I
am slammed with a strong feeling I don’t immediately recognize. Lust, I soon realize. White hot passion begins to
course through me as I cradle her to my chest. She trails her nose from the top
of my chest to the edge of my jaw, her breath tickling as it skitters across my
skin. Instinct kicks in, insistent and strong. I shift so she is
lying on the love sack, her face still tucked along my throat, and I am
hovering above her. I trail my hand up under her shirt, along her sides. She
reaches her arms around me to run hers along my spine. I shudder as her fingers
trail like a whisper from the small of my back to the nape of my neck, twining
into my hair. I lean my head down to leave my own trail of light kisses,
starting at her temple, I work my way down her face and along her throat. When
I reach the soft curve between her neck and shoulder, a low moan escapes me. I want her screams through my lust fogged brain
as I slide my hand further along her side, lifting her shirt as I do. “Jeremy,” Kelsey says softly, her hands coming to rest on my
chest. “Mmm,” I murmur into her skin, my tongue flicking out to run
up the side of her neck, tasting her. “Jeremy,” she repeats a little more sternly, giving my chest
a gentle shove. I pull back to gaze into her eyes, shimmering in the moonlight
coming through the window. “I can see where this is going, but I can’t let it get
there,” she says, shutting her eyes tightly against the words. I can
see she is trying to squirm out from under me, so I move to the side, allowing
her to sit up. Rejection washes painfully through me, nearly knocking the air
from my lungs. Confusion joins it in the swirling hurricane of hurt battering
my heart due to her reaction. I gaze at her, this hurt clear on my face. “Please don’t look at me like that,” she says quietly,
keeping her head down and fidgeting with her hands. “Why? I thought…” I say quietly, fighting the urge to break
down infrustration at my wounded pride. I trail off when her head snaps up to
look at me, eyes brimming with anguish. “Did you forget I can’t feel? That half of the enjoyment,
the passion I could have got from that was lost because I couldn’t feel any
of it. I still want to connect with you emotionally, but physically... I wish I
could feel it the way you do, I really do, but I just can’t. Would you really
get any sort of pleasure out of that when you know it means so much less to
me?” she says, angry tears overflowing. “You know damn well I wasn’t just doing it for pleasure,” I
respond, stung at the accusation. “That... That's not what I meant,” she whispers, suddenly
contrite. “Well, it sure sounded like it. I can’t believe you’d think
so little of me,” I say, cut deep by her words. “You know I think the world of you. I didn’t mean it the way
it came out. I just… I… I…” tears flowing freely down her pained face, she
stands and flees from the house.
I sit there for a moment, trying to get my anger and
heartache under control. I stomp down the stairs and back to my own room to
sleep. As if I could now. © 2023 Zoey Balderston |
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Added on March 31, 2014 Last Updated on October 24, 2023 AuthorZoey BalderstonAZAboutI'm a girl who absolutely loves to read, I often got yelled at to put the book away by my teachers. I am a huge art geek. Anything to do with art I'm all for! I write and draw whenever life allows tim.. more..Writing
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