Trapped In a Hollow

A poem on my inner conflict.

Trust... 

They’ll start on the outside And end on the outside. 

Impenetrable walls of abstract Your inside exists to no one to be exact. 

Enemy...   

I hate myself for hating myself. 

So pathetic,I hung my confidence far up on a high shelf. 

Ignorance...   

So bitter, you hated everything that had a sense of positivity. 

So dark,you nearly died from all your negativity. 

Feeling... 

When you let your emotions consume your mind, 

You become oblivious,you become blind. 

Tolerance... 

Slit...Cut...Slaughter. 

I’m drawn to the pain like an addict. 

So much comfort it feels so familiar, 

So familiar it’s hard to quit. 

It’s better to hurt than to hurt another. 

Why be harmed when you can reap the joys of harming yourself without a bother? 

Faith... 

You lived like a feather, 

Falling and breaking through dimensions 

Hoping to find solid ground to bring you back together 

And to hopefully free yourself from all your retentions. 

Comfort...  

Do not be flattered. 

I am not healed,I am not altered. 

My brain cells are still dying. 

I only come out because sometimes hiding in my thoughts becomes suffocating. 

Fear... 

All I’m asking for is a heads-up. 

I could never actually open myself up 

Because I’m dreadfully afraid of your kind 

Since all you do is criticize and mock my mind. 

Patience...  

I gave up on everything,just here waiting for the afterlife. 

No ambitions,no flare,I could never be another's wife. 

Can’t wait,ready to go but can never pick up the knife. 

Taking my time,playing this game like it isn’t real life. 

Downplay... 

Vigilant individual,you’ve become so woke 

But still you treat yourself like a joke. 

You have the amazing propensity to be exceptional 

But how can you if you don’t believe in your own potential?   

                                                      

By: ZingerWingz

Author's Note

Please ignore the structure.. i know its a mess