Wildest Moments

I can't help but think when we do our best to avoid these moments

I start rambling, talking too much as I am some pompous windbag in 

your presence...

I end up talking too much that I turn you off when really I don't want 

to lose you in this conversation

Is it lack of efficacy or is it just lack of delicacy that is my tongue that I 

lose constantly? 

You point out the truth over the falsehood and I pull out random quips

out of thin air like a magician would because I am equipped with that but 

when I see the feelings do change I want to just keep quiet. 

I don't need to tell you what I feel because we don't do that. Not that s**t!

These moments I do sleep in one side of my bed as I often do but I end up

rolling to the other side thinking you had moved on and this bed was just 

another bed I slept on. 

The pillows do remind me of a scent that you once left and I keep thinking

is it bad to preserve one smell of you in my room? 

It's a sorely reminder that I am pathetic but I can't help but think you're the 

scent that has no awkwardness just a good time of dreaming.

Anyway, in this moment of heat I think there is a good reason and measure that you

and I are talking.

It's a good feeling and I am not broken to tell you.

Truthfully is not truthfully because it's bullshit and it smells for sure.

Lying however smells better because you can smell it a mile and smile away.

So in this wildest but quietest quest moment, let's put the emotions and feelings

in front for we're not good with that until we really become serious in which case

I am seriously serious for you.

No matter how wild the world gets the most peaceful part of you 

is when you go wild, crazy and just a little girly for me because 

at least I know you're a woman deep inside that's just waiting to be 

loved for who you are in your most insecure and difficult way 

and I'm just the guy who wants not only the kiss but your heart stolen also.

So in my defense and pretext I'd just shut my mouth like the front door because 

I'd just kiss you the first chance you let your guard down and wait for the 

slap in the face because I want no awkwardness after that kiss but just a slap would do it.