Burning Alive

Lyrics - A song about what it feels like to struggle with depression and what it means to me inside.

Here I am sitting before the stone,
into which I have engraved my life.
Writings of old and writings new, too,
passion and prejudice and the work of emotion.

But when you read it with me, you'll come to see,
A disturbing pattern, forged within me.
A subtle sensation, of ruin within,
I am not him, I am not him.

Who is he? Who do I speak of? Who do I fear with all of my heart?
He is the one who twisted my spirit and tore me apart.
Like shards of glass the memories piece together, slicing my skin,
but it's through this mirror I see myself, and what burns within.

I'm burning, I'm burning,
Al-i-i-ive,
Furious and enraged,
The storms surge inside!

I'm burning, I'm burning,
Al-i-i-ive,
Malnourished and broken,
How can I survive?

If you could see me, for what I really am,
Maybe then you would really know
That every day I breathe again,
Each breath I take is starting to slow.

All of the time it feels like I'm fighting,
Just to stay above.
All of the time it feels like I'm bleeding,
the last pieces of everything I love.

I'm burning, I'm burning,
Al-i-i-ive,
Power in passion,
Through these words I strive.

I'm burning, I'm burning,
Al-i-i-ive,
But I feel the darkness creep,
Swarming from the hive.

Will me to push on further, to break to the light and to make it through the night.
Will me to hold onto hope, to harbor my strength and use it to cope.
Will me to smile again, to know that this darkness will one day end.
Will me to embrace my heart, to hold it together though it's fallen apart.

Why does it seem,
That the hours just drag on and on.
Why does it seem,
The life I am living will soon be gone?

I'm burning, I'm burning,
Al-i-i-ive,
I can't run anymore,
I never could hide.

I'm burning, I'm burning,
Al-i-i-ive,
God, help me,
I'm burning alive!

Now, I've fallen onto my knees.
I beg you Lord oh please oh please.
Don't leave me here, as I scream,
Shine me the sunlight through a gleam!

Of hope!
Of promises, that can be fufilled.
Of love!
Of friendship that endures the tests so real.
Of strength!
Of courage that lifts me to my feet!
Of a choice!
A choice!
A choice to never ever be...
defeated!

(I'm burning alive.)
Will it ever stop?
(I'm burning alive.)
The pain is so intense!
(I'm burning alive.)
My spirit cries out, my hope dries out,
And in the end you can never start again!
Not if you've given it all!

(It all!)
Given and given it all!
(It all!)
Further and further I'm fall-ing!

Laying upon the ground,
Shards of hopelessness litter around me,
Dig my nails into the dust,
GET UP AGAIN!
I MUST!
I MUST!

GET UP AGAIN I MUST!


....get up again and trust
that this will end, some day...
And I will find a way...
To smile...
To smile again...

I'm burning, I'm burning,
Al-i-i-ive.
Do I have the will?
Can I survive?

I'm burning, I'm burning,
Al-i-i-ive.
God take these flames,
and brighten the night.

I am so broken, so damaged inside,
But there is one truth
that I cannot hide.

If you ever feel alone,
know that I suffer with you.
If I could tell you just one thing,
it is that I'm suffering too,
I suffer with you.
I will hold you.
No matter how weak I am it's what I'll do,
and if you ever feel like you're alone,
Just ask me once, and you can call me home!

I'm burning, I'm burning,
Al-i-i-ive.
Take this fire,
That lives inside!

I'm burning, I'm burning,
Al-i-i-ive,
Hold it in my hands,
And let the power of light shine through.

Let it all shine through.

Here I am suffering with you.

Let it all shine through.

Here I am glowing with you!

Let it, just let it, just let it through...

Spread the wings that burn inside you!

That burn inside you!

Setting you free!

Fly with me!

Come, and fly with me...

I'm burning...

I'm burning...

Through the night...

The flames of what burns me grants me sight...

I'm burning...

I'm burning...

With a gift from above...

Even through this darkness, I still can love.

I still can love.

I know how to love.

I still can love.

I still can love..

If you need me just call out above...

Because I still can love.

Still can love.

I am love.

I...

Am...

Love.

Author's Note

Commentary is always welcome.