However Stupid It May Sound

Here I am again,

its another 2am night up..

with you on my mind;

reliving everything.

The good.

The bad;

But there wasn't much bad,

I cant off my mind.

I just wish you'd text back,

the good was so great...

for me..

anyway...

But I guess... not for you?

Well it mustn't have been.

I'm sure you would have called,

I'm sure you would have called.

I'm sure you really wanted to be friends,

I Don't think you really even cared..

cause surely if you did,

I would have heard.

But then again..

you're everywhere,

you're watching my stories..

everyday!

and I'm watching yours,

you posted one the other day..

and god I wish we were still talking,

cause I wanted to comment.

I wanted to comment on it.

start a conversation,

give you more s**t about it.

because that's one the things we bonded over.

But I made the first move last time,

I'm not doing that again...

you ended it, you stopped.

so why should I,

why should I try,

why should I feel like I'm begging?

because god I am not a beggar!

I refuse!

especially with you...

because however strange it may sound...

you made see that I was worth it.

I was worth the effort!

NO!

I am,

I am worth the effort,

and if you want me,

in any meaning of the word,

then its on you...

you broke me.

I didn't do anything but try to love you,

but you didn't want that,

I really hope you regret it.

because I'm something you will never get back.

though if you did try,

I would quiver this time.

and give in,

cause the way you made me feel..

was like I was the only girl in the world.

so how ever stupid that may sound.

I would quiver,

I would quiver at the sound of these words,

I want you back..

and I would be all yours.