The Minds Wild Fire

Sometimes i wanna cry

Scream and yell

Im fighting a fight

A war zone in my mind I

ts like world war 3000

Its never ending ever growing

There millions of bodies

All in the shape of me

My various embodiments

Im crying a scream out for help

For anyone to notice

For them to care

For them to realise

My shell is cracking

But this mask ive been wearing

Is glued on so tight

Im stuck in a box i created myself

I let people tell me to hide

And through the years i did

Every thing i let out I was told to conceal

And i did even from myself

Now 22years into life I wanna break free

But removing those layers

All that tape and glue that's been holding me together

All my scaffolding

Keeping my walls from crashing down

Is stronger than the great wall of china

Its never giving way

And when one pole comes down

A bit of tape come lose I let out a piece of myself

Make myself valuable to those around me

Those who should care Im shot down an arrow shoots through me

They add 3 more layers in its place

How do i break free

How do i release

How long can i go before the dam ive built breaks down

Corrodes into dust and ash

The cinders spark a fire

The biggest wild fire ever known

The end of the great rain forests

We've all come to know

The animals running for their life

Trying to find a new home

Some shelter from the oncoming storm

Is the end coming

How do i light a campfire for warmth

Rather than a wildfire

That can take out everyone all at once

I need to release some of this pain

I need to let go

But i just get hurt more and more

An endless cycle

A ruthless war

With only Carinish left in its path.