She Lost Her Innocence at 15

Trigger Warning. True story based on someone I know.

She lost her innocence at the age of 15

Even though she says she trusts me 

I know she will never fully trust another man 

She feels like a soldier fighting in Afghanistan 

She cries herself to sleep at night 

She's battling her demons but is losing the fight 

She remembers the wickedness of his eyes 

She wanted to kill herself because everyone thought she was telling lies

No amount of showering can make her feel clean 

It was an event that was unforeseen 

In your memory he will always remain 

No one can comprehend your pain

You shouldn't have lost your innocence

Because of another man's impotence 

I know you wanted to cry and scream 

When you told me you lost your innocence when you were 15

Reviews

[Ariana Omnomnom]

Very well written, unfortunately I know a lot of girls and women who can relate to this. It's a story that is sadly a common one and isn't fair. Luckily the time something like that happened to me I had already established a healthy relationship and view of sex and sexuality so I wasn't as damaged by it afterwards, but so many are not so lucky. It breaks my heart and this poem, I think, encapsulates it perfectly. If I could give you a rating beyond 100 I'd give you 1000

[Zayir]

It is sad that this type of thing is prevalent in the US but also many third world countries. I am so sorry that you had to go through something as traumatic as this. I hope this poem brings awareness but also helps others in some way. thank you so much for the feedback
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[Ariana Omnomnom]

I agree. I hope one day that it doesn't happen at all but it's very hard to make that happen.

[Amaya]

This is very well written, so thank you for properly describing what something like this feels like. I can personally relate to this poem for I experienced a very similar thing, I have even written about it if you want to take a look at it. Great work here!

[alienated.aquarius]

so intimate and lyrical, brilliant poem, tragic backstory. you conveyed it so well, in a respectful and truthful way. keep telling stories that need to be told :)

[Zayir]

As long as people are willing to read/listen, I will share stories that need to be heard.
read moreAs long as people are willing to read/listen, I will share stories that need to be heard.

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[Askew]

This is great, but I was a little spooked reading this because of how eerily similar this is to my own experience. Every last line brought back memories, and then I got my friend to read, someone who knows what happened, and even they believed it was a huge coincidence, even the age. It's beautiful, but also a little scary.

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

It’s very sad to know someone has to suffer like that for just being innocent. The price we pay for being weak in a world full of many brutes. Written profound.

[Zayir]

Sadly we live in a society where being the strongest, wealthiest or most powerful often means those under that person get hurt. It's a terrible way of working with one another. That's why you'll see me say Much Love for my signature (forgive me if I forget occasionally). I want all of us, to give love and understand one another through poetry, words or other ways. You read into my work a little different than others, it's refreshing and gratifying.

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[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

Thank you for the love. I really appreciate it.

[Indra's Child]

I started out on this site 100% anonymous. Now I have a full profile up, and I pretty much just feel comfortable saying that I f*****g relate to this. Too much.
God damn, I love your poetry. You write real life really well. Well, now I have another great wordcrafter to look up to

[Zayir]

When I write I want people to either relate to them(not with this poem but other one's), or at least understand/feel the emotion behind it. I consider myself an amateur but thank you haha. I really appreciate it as I don't write as much as I'd like.
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[Onlyme]

Shocking sad and so common is rape. so glad you shared this story. She is far from alone in her turmoil
and woes. But in time the memories fade, but will always be there. But you can move on and be stronger and wiser and happy to a strong degree and love you again for you alone.

[Zayir]

I completely agree Dee thank you
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[Chris Shaw]

Sad tale to relate, it's good that she has found a friend to confide in. Talking helps. You conveyed her anguish well.

Chris

[Zayir]

Thank you Chris. I tried to understand her perspective and wrote this in a way where people who haven't gone through this. Or don't know anyone who has gone through it, can comprehend just a little of what women like her go through.
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[Aaron]

wow, this was deep , keep writing

[Zayir]

Definitely will, thank you!
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