I Wish You Were Here

This is about my grandfather who I lost in October 2017

How can I be the man you expected me to be,

If you aren't here to guide me?

Feels like a never ending nightmare 

Seeing your dead body laying there

It took all of myself strength to not break down right then and there

Broke my heart when I saw my grandmother crying

I wish I could say I've moved on but I'd be lying,

I look in her eyes and all I see is pain

I still want to cry when I say your name,

I feel numb like I've been hit by a cold wave,

I know I won't be the man you want me to be 

But I will be the man my family needs me to be

I lost part of myself that day,

I just wish you were here today...

Reviews

[Indra's Child]

Damn. This is hard stuff.
I lost my dad as a kid. I never cried... but I know it fucked me up. I mean, I still am a kid. I guess I won't know the full extent of things until I grow up a little more. For fear of sounding full of fake sympathies, I won't say the usual 'I'm sorry' etc. but I will say that I know a little about what this can feel like.
Your writing is sincere and simple, bringing out the tragedy even more... a beautiful read.

[Zayir]

My condolences. You're right, sorry doesn't do anything. But the older we get we get to fully understand the depth of loss. Thank you for your review, I appreciate it.
Much love

[Indra's Child]

That is true, about understanding the depth of loss. I'm not very clearheaded right now when it comes to conversational articulacy (due to various reasons I won't complain about out loud).
Thank you for your wordcrafting and your condolences.
Boop booop
Lp

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

Firstly, my deepest condolences on your loss, dear Zayir. Your words tell me that he was a lasting influence on you and imparted great values to you. That in itself immortalises him in many ways. For we live through our generations. I know you appreciate life through all the pain and the grief it gives us at times especially in taking our loved ones away. Great words my friend.

[Zayir]

My grandparents have the biggest influence on my decisions. They made the angel side of me. His death anniversary is coming up in 5 days actually. He is immortalized through my life. I appreciate life in every aspect. Even though life can be very brief. It can have tremendous positive impacts. I'm only 19 but I strive to change the lives in others. Even if its by writing poetry or donating to the homeless. You reach deeper into the message and rip out the raw emotions. I always appreciate your reviews

Much Love

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

You’re very insightful and perceptive even in such youth. The credit goes to your loved ones. You’re most welcome. Much love.

[Chris Shaw]

Touching poem, written from your heart about your loss. I could feel your pain and the sincerity in your lines. A fine tribute to your Grandfather. May he RIP

Chris

[Zayir]

Thank you Chris, I appreciate it

Much Love

[Ally Ann]

It is so hard to lose someone that is so close to our lives. This was a beautiful poem.

[Zayir]

It is hard but I believe that losing someone so close makes you so appreciate life an makes your more empathetic with others.
Much Love

[Donna]

Very touching poem about your Grandfather!

[Zayir]

Thank you! Much love