"Bethany"

A girl who was once my friend. Name has been changed for privacy. This was written almost two years ago so things have changed.

Watching you was literally committing spiritual suicide

You would go out every night getting drunk and high 

Being promiscuous with random guys 

I told you to open your mind not your legs

You laughed in my face while finishing a keg 

You did all of this from the pain of losing your mother

As well as the loss of the man you considered your significant other

God knows I tried to make you stop

Guessing Sierra Vista didn't help with the depression or drugs

You even had the nerve to ask me if I wanted a pill

We've stayed up many nights talking about life, drugs and suicide

I remember that football game when you took some drug, you were happy

But I know you, that smile wasn't a real smile

You went to the bathroom and came out after a while

I knew something was wrong as I looked in your eyes 

"I feel sick"

You didn't have to tell me why

We sat down on the bleachers in silence

Who knows what was going through your mind 

We both had feelings for each other once upon a time

I had to go

We hugged each other and in that moment I knew

I couldn't keep doing this to myself

I wanted to protect you from the world, protect you from all the pain 

I had to leave to keep myself sane

And as I walked away my heart shattered...

The fact that I was walking away from a girl I would give my life for..

I left and ever since then we've been distant 

You say you're happy...man...how many times have I heard that lie before

Reviews

[¿]

There are many who just can't afford depression and so can't prevail over it....life then resembles hell like condition....You did make the message touching to this heart...every line was truth filled!
Almighty’s grace be upon you and your friend...Take care dear. :)

[Zayir]

That is very true. I am no longer in my own personal hell. I can't speak for "Bethany" as we haven't talked since May 2017. I would say at this point we are just acquaintances but I also hope she's doing well.

[Zayir]

I'm glad you enjoyed it Tahsin

Much Love

[Kesch (Finding Julia)]

Such an emotional read here, you sure related a message in this powerful piece....

[Vin]

Heartful!!
Do keep writing.
LOVE

[Indra's Child]

God, this is f*****g heartwrenching... Sometimes I know that if I let myself feel more, I'd probably be close to tears. I love the rhyme scheme, and as always you find brilliant ways to write real life into an amazing piece of poetry.
Booop,
Lp

[Zayir]

During that time it was definitely heart wrenching. I just let my mind flow and my hands type. As always I appreciate your reviews. Boop Boop
Much love