YOUR CHILD

A poem from the eyes of a child who grows up unloved by their mother...

My heart yearns for your love
A moment where I matter most
To the person who carried me forth to this world
I am a part of you in every way
Though you want to accept me only in flesh
Matching DNA is all I am to you
That how far this bond goes for you
I never speak out
For fear that you will cut me off completely
I can’t help but want you to want me
And if its biology that makes you care a little
Then its the subject I’m willing to accept
I have learned to hurt in silence
Even to cry feels like a waste
I have acquired the skill of accepting
That of love I don’t deserve
Since the only teacher of the course has been you as well.

Everyone who tries to warm my heart in care I push away
For me to love feels like a sin
A symbol of weakness
A vulnerability for an enemy to attack
And leave me broken and aching.
I would rather exchange a warm hug with a thorn bush
Than give a cold handshake to love

I am a frozen rock inside
With a sunshine smile painted on the outside
I just wanted to be good enough
Good enough for your love as a child
No matter how much I gave of me
Honesty, loyalty, integrity and hardwork to you
It was still not enough
I have been toiling for my birthright
The right to be loved, accepted and appreciated by you
Though now I am older
I still yearn for that warmth
My tears from the pain still flow
Yet the hope of love has dried up
I’m accepting at a steady pace
That I can never be good enough in your eyes
For yours is the love with conditions I can never afford
Even though
I AM YOUR CHILD!

My twitter handle: @PompomLaugher

Author's Note

Please leave your comments and opinions on the poem, thank you for taking time out to read it. Much love.

QDP™

Reviews

[TLK]

Perhaps the problem is that we say "this is my child"... as if we have ownership. But another person, even if they are literally made from part of us and is dependent on us, does not exist to fulfil our wishes.

Maybe we should be saying, "I am the parent of this child."

[Zamantungwa Da Poetess]

Very True... Didn't look at it that way before hey... :-)

[TLK]

I don't want to say too much because I was an unwanted child myself, and I don't want to write an unhelpfully personal (to me) review. But welcome to the 'site, and I'm looking forward to reviewing your future work.

[A. H. Pinley]

You were born to do great thing no matter how small they are, because after all great gifts come in small packages. I hear your pain. If writing helps you wrestle with feeling unloved then write. You'll heal. Happy writing!