Shut the Door

Waiting for the perfect moment to embrass my ever longing thoughts, only to find myself more in confusion. I used to dream about my life and how it would be. My once questions of life are coming to me faster than I can breathe. I don't know if I can bare the ending to hit me like you are? The choke before the cry! I only wonder WHY?? Why have you re-entered my life so quickly as you have? You're a plaque on my weakness and a desire for my strengths. You challenge me to sit quitely and hold my head up high. Frightened by the depths that wither in my soul as you still persuade me to think nothing more. I turn my head to ponder as I do, you want answere's.......I want them too! I look at you in a different perspective.....one that validate's you to be here. In my realm, my dreams, my heart, and my lost soul. The question is.......Is time still standing still or are my days getting shorter???? Is it to late???? Why have you come to embrass me with your life???? Are you there?? Why are you so different?? You're not what I remember. Were you here when I needed you the most??????? NOPE :( and nothing further more. You're a memory in the wind, a specal of dust in your sand. I will never need for you again...I've now shut the door to our end