It was never enough.

Some mixed feelings combined with a poetic sense of drunkenness. Enjoy and thank you for reading.

     I always knew it would be you to turn your back "in style",
and though this now is true,
     I still whispered in your ears to stop you from crying.
Who was it that ran bare foot, to the hospital?
     It was me, and because I thought you were dying.
Is your soul lost in that damn sand by the creek bed?
     Where we found a little brother, smothered and dead...
But you lived, and I tried to cherish it, nourish it,
     Do all I f*****g could for it.

Yeah so I am a drug addict without a girl.
     A lone broke fat-a*s, who tells stupid jokes.
Confession: I need a little guidance, a person to hold hands with,
     But it hasn't come yet so I'll stay up again,
Check my poems and then, realize that nobody is listening,
     Everything is empty, inside a Mormon community,
With zero privacy, respect, and a fellow man's dignity.
     Judge me, judge me, whose turn is it to laugh?
The funny thing is you haven't even seen me,
     For at least...hmmm...a year and a half?
Well I'm not a pushover any longer, I run myself.
     I lose weight for me, and no body else.

I'm just a sorrowful, lonely monster.
With blue eyes and approachable looks.
If only I had the courage to call her.
Sinking lines and hooks, but I'm not a crook.
This will be my last line, in my last book.

Author's Note

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Zacky D.

Reviews

[No use.]

this poem is great in the sense that although I am tempted to pity this person, i don't. there is something admirable, there is a brutal honesty that is quite beautiful and untouchable. there is knowledge, acceptance, without denial. there is great fear but a deep realization that overshadows all the ugliness and destitution that naturally is dominant

[Ace Of Hearts]

Wow, very heartfelt. Raw. Relentless. Thank you for sharing. I have felt your dismay...

[Ruth]

You know, I like your work, because you question life! You do not take it at face value love, that is paramount to this journey! There is realisation on many levels, your poetry always surprises, great piece love! xx

[Coyote Poetry]

A lot of conflict and questions in this poem. Life can be a bear. Trying to deal with family, religion and woman can twist up a sane man. I tell people when surrounded by too many things. Find a place alone and figure what you want and need. A outstanding poem. Struggling make us stronger and wiser.
Coyote

[Autumn Soleil]

great poem. I love it

[E.H. Monroe]

the final reminder of the giant f**k off you can do better on your own but in the end, well, we're never f*****g happy anyway.
Nicely done

[Misty Blue Eyes]

this is great you create a strong image of your feelings. very well put