Darkness To Light

One of the darkest moments of my life.

It has been said that one of the most precious gifts that God has given, is the creation of man. To attempt to take your own life is the most unpardonable act against God and loved ones. As I reflect back several years ago, I found myself in a state dealing with new experiences of being in high school, living in a new city, and the issues within my home. My soul became weak, my heart turned to ice, and all feelings became numb as each day left and every night came. I felt isolated and invisible because my parents gave every ounce of energy and attention to my little sister. My vision began to fade to total darkness. Wanting it all to end, I grabbed a beer from the refrigerator, a bottle of Tylenol from the medicine cabinet, and proceeded to my room where I sat in my closet and began to swallow a handful of pills at a time. As I laid in my darkness, light began to fill my world as I heard the sounds of many beeps coming from the monitors within the walls of my hospital room. I woke up crying and thinking how could I attempt such a terrible act upon myself. The thought of suicide came quick, but the desire to live took many months and therapy sessions. As with all bad mistakes, there was a lesson learned; In fact, no matter what storm is brewing, God has someone for each of us to talk to.