Tomorrow Comes Today

Tomorrow Comes Today

 

 

Only a few more weeks until I lose

One half of the only things that matter to me anymore.

When I think about the loss I’m about to suffer,

The tears flow from my dry eyes and run down my face.

 

I can’t do anything about it and won’t try anything either,

Because if I did, the half would hate me.

My sole purpose for me is to make them happy because I can’t be.

So, I sit still in my dark room and think of the future.

 

This future where everything will need to change.

When thinking about it, I just feel like switching off

My troubled senses so that I won’t have to experience it all.

But that is impossible which brings the pain back in my empty heart.

 

The people around me are always telling me

That everything is and will be fine.

But then why am I experiencing these feelings

And why can’t they finally stop and just leave me all alone?

 

I tell myself to be strong and to handle the pain,

But how can I be strong?

My mind is like a cardboard box in the middle

Of a tornado of solitude, insecurity and sadness.

 

I hate myself and what I have become.

How can I complain?

I have everything I could ask for,

But in the end, I just always feel empty and bad.

 

I will count the days until I will lose my better half,

To live out the rest of these days in what I think will be happiness.

But there is not much time left, because

Tomorrow comes today.