Saiyuki: Suicide Cry

Too lazy to put hem in order But obviously this goes before Saiyuki: The Endless Tears

So the time has gone by

A time where I must let go of the future I might have had

I can no longer live on, wondering when this cancer will kill me

Yet these tears will not stop

Utter chaos has gone through my mind

Killing my self should be easy!

I can do it!

Somehow my body reaches the edge 

Under the northern skies, my body glows golden

I repeat to myself

Calmness consumes my body

In second, I find my feet floating over the edge

Death should come quick

Every moment feels like eternity

Cries of my heart shriek silently

Ready for death I take the final step

Yet my body does not fall