Something Inside

its depressing, but filled with passion

Something Inside

I feel claustrophobic living in my own skin.

Something is calling out to me from within,

Making me uncomfortable living in my own body and mind.

I try and ignore this feeling inside, but it has my will in its fingers entwined.

I try and remember how I was once naive and without worry.

But it has destroyed all those feeling they are all quite blurry.

For it has come apart of me no matter how hard I fight.

It has eaten my will and destroyed all my might.

No matter the strength I once had, all I feel is sorrow.

For I am only a host it has claimed and will Permanently borrow.

But, its not all gloomy, for instance I can feel my emotions quickly fading.

That may seem dreadful, or dark, but In reality I am not complaining.

For I can no longer feel the despair or desperation. 

It is as if my empathy has left and took a needed vacation.

 I am not the least bit upset it will never return.

In fact I realize I do not want it back, I voice no concern.

I am no longer in competition with that something inside.

For it has taken me, and I welcome it with my open arms open wide.

I do as it says and I never disobey.

For I am blessed it has chosen me, and I need not betray. 

We are one now and there is nothing to fear.

 I did not understand before, my concerns were unclear.

                               -Sidney

Author's Note

I am open to any feedback, I would really love it. tell me what you think anything is acceptable :)

Reviews

[Nat]

Hi,

Appreciated the fact that you made it rhyme - I know it takes extra time and effort!

I find the capitalisation of "Permanently" as a nice touch.

"But it has destroyed all those feeling they are all quite blurry." (sentence a bit confusing)

Not very sure what/who is it that resides within the host and what brought the light in the end. I think you need to drop more hints.

I used to write tons of depressing poetry too when I'm sad. But hopefully, you really do mean what you say in the poem - that things will work out fine in the end.

Good job on the poem and take care :)