The Truth Behind Being a Writer

People ask me…

What does it mean to be a writer?

         As writers we slit our wrists and bleed words onto paper, they aren’t just sentences

          They are our hearts

                   Our Souls

                             Our Minds  

          That we relentlessly scratch onto a surface for future eyes to read and understand

          Every sentence, every paragraph

                   Every period

                         Apostrophe

                              Semi-colon

                                   Dash

                                      Exclamation Point

          Represents the pieces of our lives we desperately try to hold together with scotch-tape in the form of words and sentences, only to crumble under the weight of a run on or incorrect punctuation.

          Our words are the structure in the chaos of our minds, our thoughts are our demons that can only escape when we release them onto paper. The thoughts in our heads buzz relentlessly with the high pitched wail of mosquitos until we release them. 

                   Every misspelling

                               Run-On

                                   Typo

                                      Grammatical Error

Is the stability that we were once so proud of in our first draft crumbling as our sense of structure collapses into frustration and self-loathing of mistakes. 

They continually tear at the walls we worked so desperately to put up to keep them out of our beautiful creation but they always find ways to slip in through the cracks and destroy what we had just rebuilt. 

          The never-ending cycle of unintentional, self-inflicted injury we bring upon our creation which we then bandage up and tend too before killing again. 

      The feeling of being proud one second then hateful then loathing then sad then helpless then strong then stubborn that back to being proud over and over until the final period is set. 

 

That is what it is to be a writer…