Reminiscence

See

All the people who knew you before

Always say one thing that makes my heart drop to the floor

It's that I have my father's honey brown eyes

Not that I despise it, but

It means as much as I want to forget it

I have such a constant reminder of it

And

When I think of you

I remember all the things you've done

Which makes me want to set foot and run

As far away as I could from the mirror

As if there has been some grave biological error

And I,

Did not,

Belong,

To you.

Not that it ever meant anything to you anyway

Then, matters were placed into the court's hands

And given preference you tightened your demands

Made us homeless for a week or two

We were given shelter by someone we barely even knew

You basked in all your glory when you got the outside woman in

But did you really give up your own sweat and blood to commit such a sin?

And you know

During the long school days

I knew when I got home there would be no you

It's was really hard to hear all the things that daddies' little girls said their daddies could do

One said hers could take care of the house and cook

The other said hers taught her to bait a hook

And mine? Gone.

Perhaps if I was not given life

Mummy would have one stomach less to suffice

And maybe if I was born blind

I would not have to witness you walking pinky in hand with another girl child

When I waited for you to come back all this time

What is this

Injustice

How could you just let this family

Fall...apart

Even though

I know you still don't have a heart of gold, let alone even made of stone

You see

Here I am using the media to reach out too

Because long salty tears and unanswered phone calls just don't do

Even after all these years I've gotten over it and stitched my heart anew

Nobody can say that I never reached out

At least I tried daddy.

But ...did you?

Author's Note

One of my spoken word pieces..only performed this one once though. Probably my most emotional piece. Just to note that the structure, as in the lines and the way they flow, it's written the way I would perform it, as I mentioned, it's a spoken word. So I didn't think that it wasn't well laid out or anything, because that's how it was intended :)

Reviews

[Poseidon]

The emotion in this piece literally gave me goosebumps. Incredible written. Loved reading this poem. Those who do not make the effort to be apart of your life are not worth the sorrow. And even though I believe that to be true I know it must be tougher when that person is inherently supposed to be there for you. I hope writing that relieved some stress for you. Thank you for sharing!

[Willard Wells]

I am so sorry for your pain. I am on the other side as I am a father with an absent daughter. It's hard not to feel some personal blame, but you are just an innocent victim of the broken homes that we have across this country. Not to defend you father, but keep reaching with no expectations and someday his heart will scream out as he misses his daughter. When separation happens sometimes the absent parents does not know how to approach the child. Especially after some time. So like I tell my daughter, I will always love you forever, no matter what and I hope one day to share a nice dinner with her. Well done.

[fierceauthor]

I love this because I can relate on so many levels
6000 Points...............You are sooooooooooooooooooooo gooooooooooood at this!

[A hare off]

Deeply sad and lonely this poem feels. It reaches out for something, calls out for what is missing, yet runs away in fear.

[Shielah Yuyama]

So much emotion in this piece. Heavy, affecting, heartfelt. You know how to reach the hearts of the readers. Great flow, good story telling in a form of a poem. This is one of the most remarkble poems I've read so far. :)