Chapter 6

Chapter 6

I looked at Sammie. I couldn’t have put Sammie’s name in that heart. But I did and I have no idea why. I didn’t like him like that. He’s my best friend. It wouldn’t be weird if we went out. Did I just think wouldn’t? With a ‘n’ and an apostrophe‘t’? That’s wrong. Sammie looked at me. He leaned closer. Our lips touched. He started to kiss me. I kissed him back. We continued to kiss until I heard footsteps coming up the stairs. I pulled back and smiled. Jess opened the door.

“What are you guys smiling about?” she asked. We both took off our wristbands.

“Jess we know you cut. So do we.” Sammie said.

“Hey is that Paramore?” she asked excitedly.

“Yeah it is.” I said,

Can't make my own decisions or make any with precision

 Well maybe you should tie me up so I don't go where you don't want me

 You say that I been changing, that I'm not just simply aging

 Yeah, how could that be logical?

 Just keep on cramming ideas down my throat

 Whoa oh oh ohhhh

 You don't have to believe me,

But the way I way I see it

 Next time you point a finger,

I might have to bend it back

 Or break it break it off

 (Whoa)

 Next time you point a finger

 I'll point you to the mirror.

Jess sang along with the song ‘Playing God’.

“Anymore secrets?” I asked.

“Jess, Sara and I are now living across the hall from each other.”

“Oh. That’s new. I’ll be right back. I have to go to the bathroom.” Jess said. She set her bag down by my door. I let out a deep breath.

“We can’t tell her about….” I didn’t finish.

“I know. I wasn’t going to. I’m sorry Sara. I just-” I cut him off.

“Don’t be sorry. I liked it.” I wanted to kiss him again but I knew Jess would come back any second.

“Later.” He said reading my mind. Jess walked in and she looked like she heard something strange.

“Hey. Again.” I said.

“Hey.” She said back. “Are you two not telling me something because both of you look suspicious?”

“Sam! I would like your help setting up for dinner.” My dad called upstairs.

“Coming Mr. Forman!” Sammie yelled back.

“You can call me ‘dad’ while you’re here.” My dad said less loudly.

“Okay. Dad.” Sammie said awkwardly. He looked at both of us and got up to go downstairs.

“Seriously Sara. What going on?”

“Nothing why?”

“Both you and Sammie have been acting weird ever since I got here.”

“No we haven’t. We’ve been acting normal. We all just found out that we all cut. That’s big news.”

“So what. I know that’s not why you’ve been acting weird. Just tell me.”

“I can’t tell you because nothing’s going on. Trust me if there was I would tell you.” I lied straight to her face. She didn’t say anything. She changed the cd to Black Veil Brides and started to sing along to Knives and Pens.

Alone at last, we can sit and fight

And I've lost all faith in this blurring light,

Stay right here we can change our plight

Storming through this despite what's right

One final fight, for this tonight

Whoa....

With knives and pens we made our plight

Lay your heart down the ends in sight

Conscience begs for you to do what's right

Everyday it's still the same dull knife,

Stab it through and justify your pride

She sang the screamo part regularly though.