you mask the pain

for years i hurd people say 

"never run away"

"always face your fear"

even when those days are grey.

i always saw these girls crying over a broken heart,

saying how much it hurt.

i didnt shed a tear,

and the pain wasnt that bad,-

- i could mask it up and

 hide it in a bag.

i always ran from things,

distancing my self farther and father away.

i never looked fear in the face

and i never thought i'd have to see that day.

i never felt sad for long.

and never got to close with a boy.

i never wore my heart on my sleeve 

and i never thought i'd be called a w***e.

but i dated so many,

and now the day has come. 

when the pain has hurt my body

so much that i've gone numb.

my mind ,

it jumps to you,

my heart,

its worn for you.

but i always forget.

there's other girls too.

some who have stile

and cool sence of humor,

people say they get bored with me ,

people say you got to pick the best apple of the tree.

people say to  not climb if you dont wanna get hurt,

but what the hell am i supposed to do?!

i want to climb and pick the best,

but i never climbed before,

im not sure how to get back down,

and i sure to hell dont wanna fall.

the saddness over comes me,

it may leave, but always comes back.

the people, they surround me,

and they talk even more.

my thoughts, they get louder,

till they are screaming out.

the nerves they tremble,

till i scream and shout.

i have lost the reall me,

i dont know where she went.

i feel change comeing,

but i keep say no leave me, go jump a fence.

i do not want to change,

i have changed enough already.

i dont know how to change back.

im just not ready.

when i love something and have a chance ,

i go for it and take it.

but it always ends up crashing.

and i just cant do this no more.

people people everywhere.

they tell me what to do.

my thoughts they fill the air.

like the midd-night moon.

im not sure how to get there,

but i know where i wanna go,

i guess i will learn to climb,

even when theres snow.

i love you,

i cant lose you,

and you take my pain away,

you understand me,

and get me ,

and you make the poeple fade away,

you quiet down my thoughts,

because your all i think about.

and one simple touch , brings everything back around.

mabey i didnt have to climb,

because, you have picked me.

mabey i can soar ,

if you promise to me my wings, and catch me.

i love you! <3

Author's Note

this is about, running from saddness, then haveing it catch you in the end.
i tryed to say, "dont run from your fears, or pain" and you really shouldnt.
i do it all the time, and i really wish i didnt,
but near the end, it talkes about finding someone, and how i didnt have to run from my fears and how my fears ran from me, because of this person chaseing them away.
i hope you enjoy it and understand it.
sorry for anny grammer, spelling, and any mistakes.
some lines dont rhyme and for that i am sorry,
but i still hope you all enjoy, and comment <3
i love you!

Reviews

[sugar]

we all do this vicky, we stride up to that apple tree and from the bottom we see something thats looks really good so we pick it then after a few bites we find out it tastes like s**t. you just gotta learn that another one will always follow so dont just pick the one that comes your way first pick and choose- find a standered that they have to pass