these nights

have you ever sat there?

late at night

when the world settles down

but your minds wide and up.

on those nights of lonliness

and mindfull corruption

and every problem and toruble

seems to find its way to you?

have you ever wanted to talk

but no one was there

they were moveing on

while you stood so still.

while time kept on going

while your world stood stoped?

the feelings are immense

they attack you 

you cant escape them

its the nights when your mind runs free 

and your feelings take over

and no matter how hard you try

you can not control them

they invade your life

your thoughts

your wants and prayers

its like every pain of every break up 

hits you and you feel them all

and you miss everyone

and you want them all back

and those nights you text people saying you miss them

but in the morning you relize what a mistake you made.

its so overwhelming

you never know what to do.

these nights are the nights who make a person 

as strong as there weakest points

and mine im relizing is m heart

i love to hard 

and to strong

for to many people

i give myself up for the ones who i shouldnt

i let in the ones i know wont hurt me

but then they do

and im left there confused

but im so shocked i dont allow myself to feel the pain

until these nights

these nights are the darkest of memories

they all flood me

all the strongest emotions are out to play tonight

anger

sadness

lonliness

missing people

regret

memories 

there all here

and i wish to just sleep

but my heart races and my minds racing

and my emotions keep me trapped in the dark.

so ill pull through

and hope for the best

and hope to make it till morning

for these are the nights

i find myself