Isnt it funny?

Isnt it funny..
All the ways i “seduced” you.
Was it my hair?
The way i was dressed?
The way i smiled whilst dancing.
Or was it my unwillingness that attracted your attention.
Was it that i looked anxious, or easily manipulated? Was it that i didn't say anything when your hand clasped at my hip pulling me into you.. never have i felt so repulsed by something meant to be a form of affection…
was it when you just “wanted to say goodnight”.
Or was it when you wanted to see if i was still sober.
Or is it really because I’m a woman, considerably easy target..
Something i cant control-a body in which i didn't ask for, me existing isn't an invitation, it isn’t me wanting you.
If anything i made it clear over the years that i didn't want you. I never asked you to grab me my “f**k me eyes” weren’t “f**k me eyes” they were “someone come help me” eyes, they were fearful eyes.. they were eyes begging for mercy, not your curious hand.
If having a body means i want your dick.. then i don't want my body anymore.. isn't it funny