Why

Directed at Zach

Why?

Why do you do this to me

All the time

Don’t you understand I need friends?

More people than just you to love me

No you don’t get it

Of course not

You wouldn’t

I don’t know why

You should

You need me

I need him

I think he needs me to

Does he?

My heart weeps because of you

He wipes the tears dry

She brings them back

And they fall faster

Harder

More of them

She says she doesn’t want me to hurt

So do you

You both make me hurt

He doesn’t

So I need him

I need you

I need her

She doesn’t need me

You don’t need me

He doesn’t need me

No one needs me

But I need them

You might think you need me but you don’t

Trust me

Should I end my life?

No

I don’t have a reason

He makes the reasons go away

Makes me smile

Laugh

More than you

You used to

What happened?

You ruined it that’s what happened

With your fighting

Over the person I need most right now

Again I wonder does he need me as much as I need him?

I used to think she needed me

Now I know she doesn’t

So

He is the one I need

You were

But you destroyed it

Took a hammer to my trust

My heart

Every time I see him I feel so much better

Then he leaves

I cry

Waiting for another try

Taking out the knife

Thinking of cutting

What would it feel like?

To see the wound

Watch the blood trickle to the floor

Feel the sting

Scream

Cry

Just as I’m about to do it

He

The one I need

Messages me

I smile

Put the knife away

And live another day

With you screaming at me

Her making me cry

Him making me smile

Like you can’t

Why not?

You should

I was so sure you were the one

My one and only

Now it just sounds stupid

I’m always angry

At you

Or upset

With you

 I always knew you would do this

Everyone does

Besides him

What makes him so different?

So understanding

Caring

Loving

To me

I don’t deserve it

Neither do you

But I give it to you

Day after day

Giving you what he gives me

Why do I continue to give these things to you?

When all you give me is hurt

Then cover the hurt with love

Then remind me it’s there again

So I’ll ask again

Why do you do this to me?

Everyday

You don’t make me cry

I’ve cried most of my tears

No more crying

It’s a sign of weakness

I’m not weak

I’m strong

I think

No I can feel it I’m not strong

I’m the weakest person I know

So angry with myself

For no reason

So I’m sitting here with the knife

Not cutting I couldn’t

I’m talking to him

I said I wouldn’t

Then again he said he wouldn’t do what he did

So why shouldn’t i?

Because I wouldn’t break someone’s trust in me

He didn’t break mine

Just kicked it a little

But its stronger then that

So I won’t break his

You break mine more

Everyday

I still love you

Why?

I shouldn’t

I don’t want to!

I want to love him

He is the one who makes me feel better

You just make it worse.

Reviews

[Rhena Le Roi]

Wow Steph, these are really depressing :/... you need COUSIN TIME! Come see me... *gives puppy dog eyes* Come on, don't make me beg... *whimper*