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I'm at peace with myself...
but a piece of myself wants to end it all. Hold a f****n' piece to myself;
And spray away any harsh pain that I felt...
My anger rises like newly-fresh welt;
As it bubbles and kiloids till my skin starts to crawl;
I just wanna see my troubles fall;
Feelin' anti-social to the point where the darkness consumes me;
Why must I act unruly?
Better yet... why must the world must constantly screw me;
With no vaseline... I try to be mean...
But I can't, so revamp all my thoughts for the moment...
Take my own misery and own it...

See I pray everyday, and I think I'm okay
Wait... I'm lying... cuz the pain's not away.
Just when I think I'm back on my feet...
I start to feel like Kunta... the world wants me beat
And I start to feel pain that comes with defeat
While people try to make me feel just like a creep...
I ain't on it tho... my heart will fall like dominoes
Cuz I just don't deserve to stand...
better yet.. I deserve to know as a man
why I try as hard as I can
And still get left out the loop while these boys clean up...
it's okay, I stopped giving a f**k.

Because I know... no matter what, I'ma still be here
With dried up blood, and some dried up tears
covering my face like a mask, luchador of life.
My own misery is my wife...
swear i wanna leave that b***h
Cuz all she do is take and take, but she don't give me s**t.
So I'm gonna start giving her dick...

So this is my outlet to the world... my life is a glass
I just wanna see my problems pass
let my past be the past, and focus on my future
With you its true... I just don't wanna be blue.
I don't wanna be left out.... or constantly stressed out.
Just wanna be somewhere where the sun kisses my mouth
Let the stress of the world be left in the dust.

It's to my own happiness or bust......