I Fail You

Ex-girlfriend wanted some financial help and I could not aid her without putting myself out. She was not exactly happy with it - should have seen the signs on the wall.

I feel sometimes I fail you

For apart we are so very far

Pains me to see you so sad

For he seems to be looking for a fight

And I am not there to help you out

To hold you hand

Or be there with open arms

Anger his tool of control over you

Matters not gender of who you talk to

I know you say I help

In more ways than you often say

And while I believe you my beloved

I still feel sometimes I fail you

Wish there was an easy fix

A way to whisk you away from all this

Help heal the pain

Lick your wounds

Give you all you deserve and more

Yet I fall short of that ultimate goal

Without transport of reliable end

Wanting to see you safe, relaxed

Smiling without many cares in mind

Unable to deliver even a flowered "hi"

I feel sometimes I fail you

Trapped in a place, sequestered from friends

Unable to call those who love you

Unable to get close enough to hold

Tired and unable to sleep

In pain and unable to get sympathy

The one who should be there unable to be

I feel sometimes I fail you

I don't want to feel like this

Even if it is not all the time

Feel I owe you more, want to help

Unable to lift a finger more

Than I already do

Waiting for this to all end

Making things better for you

Wanting desperately to not fail you