Anxiety

I wrote this during a very bad period last year.I was homeless and without hope.

Anxiety
I cant sleep, my mind is hazy...The worries of the day bog me down.
From sunrise to sunset I await the end..With no hope insight of a breath of air.
My mind is jumbled, within and without, my heart beats widely and I cant even shout out...
My mind is hazy and fear sets in..what if I fail all over again?
The day looms on, as the clock ticks by..Each moment that passes I want to cry,
As each second continues..my mind screams, my heart beats widely and I begin to fear all things.
Breath it leaves me gasping for more, my hands shake..wish I had a cure..
The fears of failing all those I adore, sit deep within and begins to stir...
My mind is hazy and I wish I could sleep..to pass the day in dreams buried deep...
As the night looms near and the sun falls low..
My mind wanders to new fears and I groan.

I cant get past this fear and doubt, when everything else seems not to work out..
I cant have hope when hope has fled, behind dreamy visions of ghosts now dead.
My mind is hazy....