Welcome to Hell

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Chapter 1: My Family/ School Days

 

What’s wrong with my family? They never listen to me, of course every day and in my life, I’m just surrounded by a Mother who only cares for my older sister and younger brother and my dad well he died when I was very little, so sometimes I have to use my imagination and pretend that The Devil and me were family, and sometimes it would just feel like it was real.

So one day I was getting ready for school, the usual routine is normally,

• Get up

• Have a Shower/ Wash my Hair

• Get dressed

• Pack school bag

• Leave and walk with friends

That is always my routine except for the holidays and the weekend because then I can do whatever I want and it’s so good, I wish it was longer because on Sunday, I always dreaded for the next day which was of course, Monday. The worst school day in History, it feels like it goes on forever and that it feels like it never ends when it comes to school, my friends agree and I’m sure everyone else in the school agrees as well, probably even the teachers.

I mean I do love my family, they say they love me, but they probably don’t mean it because I have bad grades, I mean the only good grade I have is in Performing my guitar in Music, and to be honest, I’m pretty good, Singing? I’m okay, I’m not as good as Beyoncé though, or any other singer I’ve ever heard of in this pop culture these days. I wish I had better grades because I really don’t want to do music as my job or as my career but if it’s my only option then I’ll take it and I guess we’ll find out what happens, if I survive that long.

Some days I really hate school you wanna know why? Some of my friends get in the silliest fights, like having each other pencil’s and stealing stuff and then they find out they had it all along not the suspect. I get in fights like that, always blamed. One day I was with my friend when Sam (My 4^th bestie) she runs up to us and says that I was stealing her stuff from her P.E. locker which is so not true, my friends around me said it wasn’t true, they were sticking up for me even when Sam is one of their friends as well. I’m so lucky to have them it’s just such a shame I couldn’t see them that long.

It’s hard being in school, even though you have friends, you have your struggles, like you feel as though you can never have a boyfriend especially when you have a ‘Special feature’ about yourself, some days I feel like I will never get married, never have sex and never have a decent life, I sometimes do wander, what happens when we die? Will we go to heaven or hell or any bullshit like that, because you live in a first person perspective body but when you die, what’s gonna happen, like that haunts me, I don’t believe in religion but you know, anything can happen.

Our souls could disappear, we just don’t know but I’m a young person, people say I have ages to live but if they really truly knew me like my friends they wouldn’t say that.

At all.

It’s lunchtime now in school, the worst part ever for me in school, I sit with my friends and we talk and then Jake comes in, Jake is one of the people who bully me because I lost my father, it’s hard and my friends try and back him off but he doesn’t leave until he pisses me off and makes me rage so much, I end up putting him in the hospital, I am pretty strong for a thin, different girl.

Although, I have to deal with bullies, it isn’t really bad, their just one bad part that shouldn’t be played in a poem or play or even in a writing, script, well you know what I mean. I do like a few boys in my school, there is this one cute boy named Alex, he has spiked up and then swept hair, I find it adorable but my friends think I’m crazy because he’s a popular kid and doesn’t like to hang around with smart and funny intelligent people or so I thought until he texted me that very night.

So Alex and I started to text each other back and forth, saying hi and how’s you, and you know the normal stuff people say, then I tell him that I had a crush on him and he sent the gasp emoji with the X eyes, I found myself laughing of his reaction and he said are you serious and of course I said that I am and he was still gobsmacked and so was I because I just told a popular kid that I liked him.

So the next day of school came around, and me and Alex planned to spend some time together after school and at lunch. Jake came to my table and Alex told him to back off and gave him a punch and then he left, surprisingly nobody told him off for doing it, instead they were cheering because basically everyone in school hates Jake, because they’ve been bullied by him before, so I kind of did guess that Alex has been bullied by him before too and so that was sure to be his revenge for me and him. I told my friends that Alex and I were texting and said that’s crazy and then Alex came over with his bag ready to go to the place we planned (Which was an orchard of Jasmine Blossom’s and apples and a nice swing).

We both walked down to the Orchard and Alex offered to take my bag but I insisted that I took it until, he was like the main boy in Dirty Dancing, lifting me into his arms, like I weighed nothing and took me to the swing and sat me down. I was blushing a bit and took off my slip on shoes and then we started talking till all of a sudden, we started blushing and we both leaned together and stole a kiss, our hearts were racing but we couldn’t stop, till I pulled away.

I said are we crazy, and he said I think we are, I mean I am a popular kid and you are a smart, funny girl after all. I kind of leaned in and he let me fall to the ground and then he laughed and so did I, so it was meant to be me and Alex, a couple after all. The next day came around at school and everyone was cheering at me, saying what a good person I am for being with Alex, my friends couldn’t believe that we were together now.

Just in that moment, Alex came over to the table and sat with my friends and I, I was blushing and so was he, at school they have a rugby team, and of course he’s the leader of the team. Friday came around and Alex gave me tickets to his Rugby team game against the Auctherless School kids, they were handsome but very tough, I mean in a rugby team I guess you had to be quite tough to be on team.

As the game went on, I saw Alex sitting on the bench, he was texting me and we were texting back and forth for a while till he was aloud on the pitch, Alex did ask if I wanted to go over to his house tomorrow and see my parents and then the parents could talk and me and Alex could be all alone. I said I would have to ask my mum, I would love to go to his house and see if he has any pets, I should ask him but he’s on the pitch he wouldn’t answer me, just a bit later, Alex had the Rugby ball and he charged his way through and got a touchdown at the last 5 seconds, I was so proud, I was cheering and screaming and everyone joined in.

After the game, I met up with Alex, we walked to my house and he kissed me goodbye and that I might see him tomorrow, if not we were gonna use FaceTime or Skype each other. I asked my mum if I could go and she said I could, I was so excited that I hugged her really tight and texted Alex right away, he said that was great and he can’t wait to see me tomorrow, in a girlfriend way, I was more excited than he was.

So Saturday came ‘round and I picked out this cute New-look top and a pair of jeans and a nice pair of white trainers with laces that was already tied, I looked cute then I asked my mum to help with my hair, I let it down but gave it some curls at the ends. I looked incredible, then I did my own makeup and wear a flower in my hair, a fake one I add. Anyway, I took my phone and like a little bag with some essentials in it, they I would need like a book, my phone, the bag itself, makeup, purse etc.

I came up to his door and he opened it to greet me, and told me to come on in and kissed my hand lightly, making me blush. He called out for his mom and dad to meet me, they were very nice people and I was glad that they didn’t hate me for somebody who is sweet and kind as him. Alex and I, we went to his bedroom and were chatting and time flew by, we were laughing a lot, he is the best boy I’ve ever met, then he called out his dogs, a husky called Ella and a Golden Retriever called Jordan, both girls.

I patted them both and gave them a big hug, since the Retriever was a puppy I took it and held her in my arms, and then Ella jumped on the bed and laid next to me and Alex, we were blushing and we were stroking the dogs and I gave snowy a tummy scratch while Alex held Jordan in his arms, stroking her gently. After, the dogs went somewhere else, but Ella was carrying Jordan on her back but she was walking very gently so she didn’t fall.

Alex came towards me and tickled me, I was laughing so hard, he was laughing too even though he wasn’t the one was being tickled, then he laid on top of me and made out with me, like pinning me to the bed and making me not resist anything, then he got one of his belts and tied my arms together, then he told me to relax, then I saw his trouser zipper down and I knew what was coming.

He wanted to go further and then gagged me and I couldn’t speak, then he took down his pants and put on a condom and he was naked now, except for the condom and then he started to take my clothes off, then he was licking and kissing my body all over. I was moaning while excited for what was happening, then he licked my p***y and proceed to lay on top of me, sliding it in, I was moaning loudly and then he turned me over and spanked me on my a*s for being loud but it was a pleasure yet a bit painful.

After then, we both got dressed again and I was released from belt-tied hands, I said that it was great and he agreed and he’s love to do it again sometime, like go on a date and try it out. I said that would be lovely Alex, we’ll have to tell our parents that it is a date though, and not tell them much detail, and of course he agreed to my statement and so we both proceeded to tell our parents and we were gonna go on a date on Wednesday after School to the woods and spend some time together.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Chapter 2: My unhappiness

 

Wednesday came by and I said that I couldn’t go with him, I had homework to do and he said that it was fine and he could at least walk home with me but I said no that I was fine to walk by myself. He was kinda gobsmacked and walked with his popular friend’s home, while my friends caught up with me and then we all went to our houses.

Mine being the last among the group, I went to my bedroom upset and then Alex texted me to ask if I was okay because I didn’t want to go on the date with him. I said I was fine but really I wasn’t, there was a hole inside my heart, meaning that I was always sad, not thinking of the good times or being happy like most people, I was also thinking suicidal thoughts, like I really wanted to kill myself because of bullies.

I hate my life and I wanna die….

There is no one who can help me…

Someone kill me…

I was in room, and I found a song on YouTube that is so relatable to me and then I was singing along and my mum heard me and busted open the door when I was done, and I gasped while she was upset and disappointed that I hadn’t told her but I did tell my friends so I do people who can help me, I’m not alone but it’s getting harder for me every day, I feel like I can’t live in the moment, I might be losing but It takes all my strength to keep all my emotions alive and well but the sadness in my heart is like the only one that controls me and I can’t control it back and keep it away, it just stays with me.

I texted Alex, about it and he was shocked just like my parents and that reason was why I couldn’t go on the date and he understood, but I feel like I should break up with him because he doesn’t deserve a girl who isn’t his sweet, bubbly girl that is happy and well and not someone who is sad and dying on the inside. I told him that as well and he said no don’t say that, I love you no matter what, and he’s there for me through thick and thin.

My mum called my GP doctor to come around to our house and I called my friends over to help and they all came around and we sat down and had a talk about it, my doctor Jane said that I should think of good memories, but I just can’t its all just darkness, and I don’t feel happy about the memories. After that, my friends stayed over all day and we were laughing then it turned to darkness, I had fainted and rolled onto the floor, my friends thought it was a joke till they felt my pulse, it wasn’t fake, I was having a heart attack, and I wasn’t able to breath.

My friends called out for my mum and ringed up an ambulance for me, and I was rushed to a room, hooked up with wires and monitors and drips and everything, I was crying on the outside even though I couldn’t open my eyes or speak. My friends and mum, thought that this was the last time that they would see me, but I came out of the heart attack but then I went into a coma, where I was truly trapped, the doctor said that I might come out but it would take a few months.

A few weeks later, Alex came, and just because I’m in a coma, it doesn’t mean I can’t hear them. Anyway, Alex stood beside me, as my mum left the room and he said that he wanted me to come out of the coma, and he kissed me, thinking it would work like the fairy tales do, but no it didn’t, as I thought. Alex wept and so did everyone, and he left me a gift and a note for me to read, but since I was asleep, I couldn’t see or read it.

Then I woke up, and I sneaked out of bed, removing all the wires and putting on normal clothes and I took my bag and phone and sprinted out of there to the roof, my heart was racing and I shouted Alex, but he ignored me or he thinks I was just in his head, then the doctor was gonna give me a shot and I hate them, so luckily I missed it and then they called my parents, friends and Alex about me that I was missing.

They were shocked and raced on over to the hospital to see the doctor, they said they didn’t know where I went, or where I could go, but I was awake and I still am and they tried looking for me everywhere, till I texted my friends, that I was on the roof but don’t tell anyone and they asked why I would say that, and I said back that I didn’t want to go back to my misery life and I couldn’t take it anymore, till they showed my mum and Alex, were I was and they rushed out to the front and shouted Brynn, which is my name.

I turned around and I saw them, I shouted for my friends to catch me, and then… The doctor stabbed me with a needle and I fell to the ground, with my bag and phone falling with me, as I was falling I saw that I might not make it, and as I left the doctor grinned at me, like he hated me. I screamed slowly as I fell, and then my friends caught me and they ran off with my Mum and Alex and took me to my house, they rushed off and placed me on my bed and called for my GP doctor to come out, luckily Jane got Dr. Smith fired for stabbing an innocent girl with a deadly liquid, even Jane didn’t know how she could help me, except for keeping an eye on me to see if anything at all would change.

The next few days and weeks flew by, when I finally started to open my eyes, I opened them and asked what happened, I knew I was weak, I couldn’t feel the same as I was feeling before. After a few gruelling months, I was back too normal, as I went to school, everyone would whisper about me and what happened but they were caring, I was bullied anymore and Jake was kicked out of school for bullying me and being the cause to my unhappiness.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Chapter 3: My funeral

 

As life was still going on, I was still pretty unhappy, for my birthday last week, my mum bought me a piano, and so I’ve played on it ever since and I’ve played some great songs, like skyscraper by Demi Lovato, City of stars by Ryan Gosling from La La Land and so much more! Playing the piano is my escape from my hard life, I’m still with Alex, surprisingly on how much has happened to me, but he’s gonna be really sad when he finds out what’s gonna happen to me, and he won’t bear it this time, because this is bigger than before.

Anyway, I went to my friend’s house, shattered and shedding tears, we all did a big group hug and I explained that I couldn’t take my life when everything seemed as perfect as sunshine, but not everything sunny can mean that it’s a good thing for everyone, like me for example, when the sun shines I hate it, it just remembers me of my pain and my past and what’s happened during this past year.

This week on Saturday I’m going with my friends to a Little Mix concert, so that will be good and fun. Saturday came around and we were all wearing jeans and t-shirts and bring light jackets just in case it rains, in between, before or after, there was 2 support acts on tonight, one called Germein, an Australian 3 sister act who were amazing and we’ve never heard of them before but now we love their music.

The other support act was Rak-Su a dj hip-hop band, they were also good but my friends and I said that Germein was better. After the support acts, Little Mix came on, everyone was screaming and shouting and jumping and we all sang along to their songs, and we agreed that they sound better live then they do recorded.

After the concert, we all got Little Mix hoodies from the Official Merchandise, we all worn them and then it started to chuck down with rain, so put up the hoods and walked to where my mum parked, then a guy was selling t-shirts, not the official ones but then he had posters and it was so windy they blew away and we each got one to hang up on our walls once they were dry enough to put on.

Monday came around and it was back to school, yay, what fun, but I skipped school all day and went to the school roof, like I did when I was at the hospital, I couldn’t take my life, so I stood there, listen to sad music and stand on the edge, Alex was walking with my friends to find me, and they saw me on the roof, and I took steps off the edge, and closed my eyes and I hit the ground with a powerful slam to the ground, I had truly gone this time around and as sad as it is, it was all true, my friends called my mum and they took me to the hospital where my GP works, and they put me on the bed, all wired up, again. This time they said that I didn’t have much time to be here in the world anymore, seconds later, I passed away.

The day came when it was my funeral, everyone was weeping and crying to mourn the death of Brynn, I never got to see Alex before I died, if it wasn’t for him ignoring me, I might have reconsidered on being away for a while, but now no one can save me, I hope your all happy now.

The End.

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[Chris]

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