I'm not looking for a forever, I don't even need a lover
As long as you're my best friend, I'll never need another
We'll call it temporary, and say it's just for now
But we both know this will have to end eventually
We just don't know how
Enjoy the moment you live in, it won't be 'round much longer
I know I'm scared to let this go but it will make me stronger
I push it aside and say it's alright, when we all know it's not
A part of me that you can't see is changing my train of thought
Only reason it's not over yet
Is because of that day you messed with my head
Normally it'd be easy to forget
Now it's my last thought before I go to bed
Because of you, I live in regret
And by this point, I'd rather be dead
Only reason it's not over yet
Is cause I'm afraid I'm killing two instead
If I am the only one that's under my skin
A new wave of doubt will sprout from within
There's so many things from you I have hidden
All of it nothing more than forbidden
So if today you left me
I don't know where I would be
Would you remain a friend
Or become another enemy
I had to hurt someone for you
Though everyone says he deserves it
If I wanted to make old feelings new
In the end would it be worth it
No one could ever agree with me
How could they know what I want
They say they know what's best, you see
They'd feel nothing more for me than pity
These thoughts of mine, at night they haunt
My friends would think me differently
But do they know me really?