I don't want to doom you to the same fate as the others
Trapped in the form of words weaved into a blanket
That I envelope my conscious mind with once in a while
Whenever the nostalgia rears its ugly head and I take refuge
I don't want to transform you into the same sadness
that I always seek out for comfort
Instead I want to preserve you in everything I see
The beds that our skin touched will retain the heat
The car, though tainted, and the other destroyed
Will forever smell like the perfume I wore to entice you
Instead I want to relive each flutter of my heart that you
brought on simply by being near me
Replace my every breath with a sigh of sensual release
Draw me in just to push me away in tidal waves of suspense
Hold me close with nothing more than a glance, a brush of
your fingers over my hair as I lay in your lap
Become my sinful desire and consume me with your fire
I want passion so strong it eats my insides for weeks after
every encounter in forbidden locations
Desensitize me to the real world and crush me between your fingers
I've lost my moral compass in your magnetic field and I can't stop
revolving on this axis flipped upside down
You found the one weak spot in the brick wall
Now rip out the stitches and let me shed my familiarity
I want to walk a tightrope ten hundred feet off the ground
For the thrill of the fall no matter how deathly afraid
we both know I am of heights
I'm starved of excitement, attention, of physical affection
Silence me with your touch, your hands, your mouth
I need you to remind me what it feels like to see stars
speckle my vision, back arched toward the ceiling
No, I could never capture this in a photograph
To wear away with time and use, to fray the edges
With the tips of my fingers and saltwater droplets
I could never let this be the same sadness I'm used to
when you gave me so much more to remember you by