Heart of Glass. [Chapter Five.]

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When I re-opened my eyes, I found the most beautiful sight that I've ever witnessed in my entire life. My husband was standing in front of me, his hand extended towards me with the ocean behind him. I, myself, was wearing a white simple dress, exactly the kind of clothing I used to wear. The sun was glaring off of the both of us as I took his hand, being led off and into a canoe.

With him, there were always surprises in store for us. I never knew where he was going to take me, nor what he would say. I always lived on the edge with him, giving me a certain rush each time I was with him, that was like my own personal addiction. I just couldn't get enough of it. Staring at him now made my heart ache in realization. I missed him beyond compare and needed him more than I ever thought I would need him. While I was lost in his sapphire, dazzling eyes, he was paddling his way across the ocean. He had a slight tan since I saw him last, his brown, shaggy hair blowing in the breeze.

At this angle, he almost seemed like an angel. The waves were both calm and gentle, splashing against the canoe with grace. There was a sense of warmth in the midst of this whole environment. A certain light in my once dark, mysterious world. I dipped my fingers in the water carelessly, an evident, brilliant smiling aliting my husbands' face as his eyes continued to search me for clues. Clues on how I was feeling and what I was thinking. I never was an open book, for I always had my walls up, closing in around me so that no one would ever figure me out.

I was complicated, but that was how he liked it. He liked the mystery and suspense of not knowing either what I was thinking about something he did, or even my feelings towards him in some situations.

While I continued my repititious thoughts, I hadn't noticed that my husband was suddenly missing from the canoe. My heart began to slam against my chest, my breathing becoming abnormal as my entire body began to suddenly shake with nothing but absolute fear. I searched all around, the sun blocking most of my view, my anxiety rising within me, also improving my nausea that I had felt once before. The knots in my stomach were now causing pain to rise through me as I clenched the side of the canoe, taking deep and slow breaths to try and calm myself. A lump was formed in my throat, while I was trying to keep it down and decrease all of the pain and negative feelings that would literally destroy me.

All of a sudden, there was an instant tap on my shoulder, making me jump out of my skin and releasing a squeal from my once dry and chapped lips. Laughter echoed around the air, silencing all of the pain as realization hit me hard in the chest: It was my husband. My hand automatically found his, then I flinched away from him. He was soaking wet and was still floating in the water before me.

"You scared me!" I exclaimed, running the dry hand through my hair.

"I apologize, my fair lady. Would you like to take a little dip with me?" He asked with a smirk, his head cocking to the side as his eyes twinkled with a sense of edgy happiness that I found to be rather dangerous, yet sly. He was up to something, but I wasn't so sure that I was ready to gain full knowledge of it. With a sudden twist, the canoe tipped over, the air around me dissolving into water. The air that I was once breathing was now gone, as I opened my eyes, the salt sending a certain sting in them. Bubbles were starting to escape my lips as I felt the cold water producing chills throughout me. My hearing was distorted as I started to lose control of my breath and surfaced to the top.

When I escaped from the water, I spurt it all back out again, examining the environment before me. The sea water was still stinging my eyes, blurring my vision slightly as I continued to rub them. Foreign arms were now around me, pulling me towards a warmer figure than before. Goosebumps were evident on my arms as I turned around, heart still pounding in my chest. I only realized that it was my husband and everything inside of me started to relax, except for the butterflies slicing through my stomach every second. My heart fluttered in my chest as he kissed my cheek, pointing up to the sky. Whenever I made my decision to look up, my mouth was agape and I was staring at a sunset with awe. The sky was like a painting; blue, but streaks of pink and orange all over. It was as though it had become a big canvas in the sky, already being used by an environment-loving artist.

"It's beautiful." I remarked, climbing back in the canoe with him, just to have my entire body trembling. He wrapped his arms around me, shielding me with his warmth and protecting me from all of the harshness that had once surrounded me. His head was now on mine, as we embraced this moment with all of our hearts and souls, uncaring about anything, - or even anyone - else.

Reality hit me like a wave of cold water splashing against my face. Tears were silently streaming down my cheeks, as I was shaking myself. I was utterly and completely alone, no husband by my side, no smiling to face to warm my insides. That was no moment; it was only a dream.

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