Euphoria in the Abyss {{11.2.2009}}

longing.

My mind makes up situations that help me
feel
But the situations just don't feel
real
The emotions, sounds, places,and the people I see
don't seem to see anything about
me
I feel more from others, than others feel from
them
But... there's only a one person I want to feel
and I'm afraid to get near him
again
When I try to get closer, he runs away.
But when I give up, turn away,
he comes closer to me
that day.
Confusion, stress, disfunction, relief
*euphoria*, bliss
That finds me when I start sinking
into this abyss.
I just want to feel close to him
again
But it seems I can only do that by leaving
completely-
And that will surely
kill me..