Spit it Out

The hardest time I've ever had trying to tell someone...

Tis midnight when my words will send
Though text seems coy and cheap
But to say the words, it's impossible
For my lips seem to fall asleep

I scream it at the top of my thoughts
As you lay here by my side
Though I understand you're deaf to it
As my mouth will not let it slide

I kick myself and argue too
How hard can it really be
I've said it to many a man and beast
As simple as making a cuppa tea

But with you, it's always different
I'm not sure how you see me
I'm scared to lose you yet again
To someone much less worthy

I cannot find the bravery
To lay it upon my tongue
I'm ever afraid of the consequence
Though it's destined since we were young

So alas I did not send the words
Now New Years Eve has passed
So here I am in search of solution
Resorting to poetry as my last

We've not been out for food or films
Nor drinks, adventure or style
But somehow time loops us back
And it's you that makes me smile

So here it goes

This will have to do

My last attempt to say

I love you