ListenA Poem by WordsFromAPenSelf harm isn't just a phase, sometimes it's for life.
It's not a weakness, Nor a sin
To let the blade back in again To feel alive, to feel release To know I'm becoming me again I feel relaxed, I feel free No longer overwhelmed by need I don't hit the bottle, nor the slots Yet this is worse than all that lot... Apparently. It's ugly and it's wrong Attention seeking freak Stop looking for redemption In the skin that covers thee Though you never understood Nor ever even tried But I'm here to tell you gently To stop banishing my guide It may well be an addiction But one that hurts only me No need for you to feel guilty It's a sense of freedom you see I don't look at you for protection Nor ask you for your help To get me back to "sanity" For I never went to hell I simply chose to focus All the divided pain Into one sweet spot of relief So no one else gets slain Why oh why must you judge me For keeping it to myself Did you really think I'd push this On to anybody else I've come a long ol' way From where I once was Not really sure I could do it But I sure did hold it off But relapse is just that A momentary lapse Of all the strength it's taken To beat off the endless traps Where do I stop my lesson When will you understand That I'm perfectly okay Just give me a helping hand Don't say you want to help Don't ask me to explain Just be there when I need you Where silent acceptance is gained Once you start to realize That I'm not a mad ol' moo You'll probably realise I'm not that far off you I still love to love And hate to hate But strong emotions Break flood gates I try my best, everyday To stay afloat This never-ending drain But now and then When the time is right Even I lose sight I will be fine I shall pick up And you need not worry There're more pages in my book. © 2021 WordsFromAPen |
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Added on February 5, 2021 Last Updated on February 6, 2021 Tags: Self harm, mental health, awareness AuthorWordsFromAPenNorthamptonshire, United KingdomAboutI have a BA with Hons degree in Drama (2018) I work in a café that I helped to set up and name. more..Writing
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