I've missed so many different calls on my phone, I really just need to be alone. I'm trying to think of why I feel different inside, and I think it's because you're not by my side. You seemed to know exactly what I needed to hear, and I wish that right now you were just here. You don't have to say anything and I don't want there to be anything for you to do, but I just want to be closer to you. I'm sorry for hiding but it's really hard to just be me, I've been through a lot in life you see. Yet you couldn't know that how in the world could you, if I never chose to open up to you in anything I chose to do? I'm sorry for shutting myself out and away from the help you were trying to show, and now I don't know where I'm supposed to go. The phone sits there ringing and I know you're trying to reach me, but I'm emotionally unavailable so leave your message at the beep.