Doing What is Best for Myself

I wrote this after not accepting my currently ex-girlfriend back into my life because I didn't appreciate the way she treated me near the end of our relationship.

You helped me feel loved, understood and enlightened. I felt what we had was different from others. I felt that I could take on the world with you. You gave me the rope to climb out of the dark hole which was my depression. I knew you were always there by my side for when I was in pain.

You then changed. I gave you everything I could give. I pandered to your every need and necessity. I saved you from your dungeon. I sacrificed part of myself for you.

You became selfish. You treated me unfairly to everyone else when you did not get what you wanted. You expected things from me because you believed you deserved them. You put me in pain even when I still supported you.

I understood that you did not intend this and are sincerely sorry for your actions, but that does not excuse you never wanting to try. You gave little to no effort into giving me what I truly wanted which was your happiness. You became too much for me to handle which would have been non existent if you would have been willing to consider what I had to say.

Know that I still want the best for you and to still see you happy, but you would have continued to be a detriment to me if I stayed with you. I needed to stay true to myself, so I considered myself before you for the first time. I want you to still be the best you can be because I know you can, but you must do that on your own now because I must consider my own well being. That is something that must be done sometimes. 

Author's Note

I have a weird style of writing when it comes to expressing my emotions if it's not for a project. I tend to make short writings when an event comes into my life that makes me need to express my thoughts on it. I see it as a sort of free verse styled poem. Tell me your thoughts and constructive criticisms. They would be appreciated. Thank you.

Reviews

[Satan]

Respect for being brave enough to follow through with it and then share the experience with us. I know exactly how you feel by the way. Chances are if you're truly unhappy outside of a relationship getting a partner isn't going to fill that void. I will give you some advice and you're free to accept it or disregard it as you please. I'd suggest working out how you can be happy without a partner (that doesn't mean be alone btw) and enjoy the single life while you do so. And once you're finally ready well... I don't have to tell you how many fine ladies are out there haha. l8r

[Wolves]

Thank you so much for your advice.