What's Depression Like?

So, this is my personal experience.

“What’s depression like?” They ask.

It’s everyday wearing a simple mask,

Hiding the way you feel

Behind a smile that’s not real.

But it’s more than that, it’s like being alive,

Without any motivation to strive.

It’s fighting not to cry,

To keep your tear ducts dry.

It’s not being able to tell a friend,

Even though they may help mend.

Because the fear that they will turn away

Is far greater than the hope that they will stay.

It’s like drowning, the air in your chest turning to stone,

But everybody around you is breathing, lost in their own little zone.

Not knowing what to do, no matter what you say,

Because it ends up being wrong anyway.

It’s being put on a “happy pill” that makes you smile,

But it only lasts for a little while.

And once it’s gone, never to return,

It’s something else’s turn.

It’s always feeling alone,

Not liking anybody’s tone.

The sarcastic, snide and scornful.

The mocking, moaning and mournful.

You’d think people would be willing to assist,

But let me tell you, they normally resist.

You say we shouldn’t be afraid, we should have no fear,

But look at what people say at just a single tear.

Author's Note

You can agree or disagree, but this was how I felt during my days of depression. I've gotten better, but I felt like people should understand what it's like.

Reviews

[Lord of mad men]

You hit the nail on the head. This is what depression is. Depression is a fact of my life I have learned to hide some times eve. From my self my mask is not simple though its has grown to a new glass face. But on good blow it is gone yours truely a mad lord

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

Iv been having depression lately, I guess everyone feels differently, although I could relate to some of it.
Like this part:
But it’s more than that, it’s like being alive,
Without any motivation to strive.
It’s fighting not to cry,
To keep your tear ducts dry.

This part I find very true.

Anyway this poem is great im sure allot more people can relate to this to.
Its also very deep, meaningful and real.
Im so glad your getting better now though, good for you :)
Loved this piece :)

[Silent Wolf]

Yeah, everybody is different. I didn't expect everybody to relate completely to this.

Yeah, so far a lot of people can relate to this.
Thanks for your input. :)

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

You are more than welcome :)

[Skai Rain]

I am sorry you every went through feeling this way, but I love this poem. I can relate to it well. Thank you for sharing.

[Silent Wolf]

Thank you for reading. :)

[mias]

Loved it! thanks for sharing this! :)

[Calamity]

I applaud you for your courage to post such a personal piece. Everyone's experiences are somewhat similar yet unique in their own way. Respect.

[Silent Wolf]

Thank you.

[anastasia]

I really love this Silent Wolf, I thought it was vague enough for a clueless reader to find it attractive, but descriptive enough for another going through the same things to understand exactly what you were talking about. There's somewhat of a beautiful simplicity placated into this poem.

[Silent Wolf]

Thank you! Do you think that, if you had no idea what depression was like, you'd still understand how it was if you read this? Or at least a vague understanding?

[anastasia]

I think I'd know enough to not ever want to go through depression and I'd think differently towards people with depression.

[Silent Wolf]

Differently as in how? In a good way or bad way?

[anastasia]

In a good way! I'd probably be more sympathetic ,but not in a smothering way. I'd probably always tell people that I was open to talk to them and assure them of how strong that they are.

[Silent Wolf]

Good! :) that was my goal for this. To help people understand and stuff. :)

[anastasia]

By the way I think that you're a really talented writer!

[Silent Wolf]

Lol thank you! :) I try.

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

I enjoyed the read. You really hit what depression is like. I can relate to it. I still feel depressed a lot, but when I talk to someone to my friends they really do help me. It hurts to feel like I can't always go to someone. My smiles lately seem real, but I know they aren't. Sometimes I just wish it was easier to go through, but you always have to remember you are never alone. Thank you for sharing. :)

[Silent Wolf]

Thanks. Yeah, I know it's hard, but if you remember you're not alone, then it helps. :)

[Angie Diane♥♥]

You are very welcome! I loved the flow of it too. I forgot to mention that in my review.

[Silent Wolf]

Thank you. :)

[Traci]

Silent Wolf, this takes great courage to share such an experience, written with such honesty and true emotion. I can relate and empathize, and you are spot on with what one faces on a daily basis. Stay strong my friend, fighting through the darkness, one moment at a time, knowing you have friends who care and love you whenever you need them.

[Silent Wolf]

Thank you. When I said "it's something else's turn." THATS when things like self harm came into play. But, it was a poem for a project at school, so I can't really say that was when its time to cut... I have been getting help and getting better, so that's good, but I still know how it feels to go through this.

[Julia Mars]

It's all those things indeed, and more.
It's not always as obvious to spot as people think.
Brave writing.

[Silent Wolf]

Thank you. Yeah, there's a lot more, but this is just something that I know everybody can relate to.

[M.J Donnchadh]

Silent Wolf, I'm glad you are not silent, you have just written the story of my life, I connect to this poem so much.Take it from someone who can relate and empathize, please, stay strong and keep
fighting on, because, one day somethings gotta give, for you see, happiness and I always play
a certain game, a game called hide and seek, happiness is always hiding and I'm always seeking it,
but one day, one day God willing, I'll find it. Amen.

Great Write'
Keep Writing, you've got talent!
M.J Donnchadh.

[Silent Wolf]

Thank you. :) I felt like this would relate to a lot of people who went through depression.