Human

I stare at the ground, twiddling my thumbs.
What did I do wrong?
Why does everybody hate me?

I hear the whispers
As I walk down the halls.
I feel their cold eyes staring
As I sit alone in my dark corner.

My ex friends gave me hostile glares.
What did I ever do to you?
I don't understand.

I hand that pretty girl my lunch money
Because somebody stole hers.
But I know by the look in her eyes
That she'll never talk to me again.

All I want is a friend.
Is that too much to ask?
Will I be alone like this forever?

Your words hurt me.
I am human too.
Just like you.

As I pick up that knife,
Aim that gun at my head,
I hope you remember me,
But I won't hold my breath.

Author's Note

So, for the majority of my life, I was the center of nasty rumors, teased, and that one person people felt bad for for only a minute before forgetting about them and leaving them on the side of the road. So, obviously it's hard for me to put my trust into people, online or not. So, well, now you know.

Reviews

[KittyKatgirl]

I'm so sorry :'( Nobody deserves to go through what you have. You're strong and brave. I understand you'll find it difficult to trust people online but I will never turn my back on you. Anyways, great poem. I hope it get's through some people's thick head that they need to stop this monstrosity.

[Silent Wolf]

*hugs* Honestly, I find it a little easier to trust people online (if that makes any sense...). Yeah, I agree -- the hatred needs to stop.

[Phillitup]

This writing is engaging and memorable. I hope you don't take what those mean people say/said to heart because they don't know anything about you. Love this poem, it's pure genius and nothing more can be said of it.

-Dell

[Silent Wolf]

I used to not care, but as time went on, it got more and more hurtful, and some of it even became true...

[Phillitup]

I'm so sorry such terrible things have happened to you. I trust that you are strong and while that isn't often enough to get you through and I know you don't trust anyone, know that as a random person in the world I hope things get better. I have friends like you and have felt the same way at times. Don't give up. I know it sounds lame but it's true. :)

[Silent Wolf]

Thanks. Ah well, such is my life.

[icelandicblue]

William Shakespeare — 'If you prick us, do we not bleed? if you tickle us, do we not laugh? if you poison us, do we not die?

Why is it that it is so very hard to make connections when all we want is to be a friend. We are a difficult and fickle species. Very well done.

[Silent Wolf]

Thank you for reading. And why is it so hard? One may never know...

[Eryn ♪]

I think I understand you a bit better now. Thank you for that. I can't say I have been in the same boat, but I do know that to cross that road takes some incredible strength. You have earned my respect.

[Silent Wolf]

Thank you so much. :) Yeah, this like explains my life. Now I know I have two very good friends in real life, but most of my friends are online. :3

[Eryn ♪]

Awesome to hear.

[Silent Wolf]

Yeah, I guess so.

[Darkening Shadow]

That's so sad.... :,( I can feel the emotion through it... Great Emotional Write!

[Silent Wolf]

Worst part is its true...

[Creepy Swine Guy]

“Even in our sleep, pain which cannot forget, falls drop by drop upon the heart, until in our own despair, against our will, comes wisdom through the awful grace of God.”

--- Aeschylus ---