Human

I stare at the ground, twiddling my thumbs.
What did I do wrong?
Why does everybody hate me?

I hear the whispers
As I walk down the halls.
I feel their cold eyes staring
As I sit alone in my dark corner.

My ex friends gave me hostile glares.
What did I ever do to you?
I don't understand.

I hand that pretty girl my lunch money
Because somebody stole hers.
But I know by the look in her eyes
That she'll never talk to me again.

All I want is a friend.
Is that too much to ask?
Will I be alone like this forever?

Your words hurt me.
I am human too.
Just like you.

As I pick up that knife,
Aim that gun at my head,
I hope you remember me,
But I won't hold my breath.

Author's Note

So, for the majority of my life, I was the center of nasty rumors, teased, and that one person people felt bad for for only a minute before forgetting about them and leaving them on the side of the road. So, obviously it's hard for me to put my trust into people, online or not. So, well, now you know.

Reviews

[KittyKatgirl]

I'm so sorry :'( Nobody deserves to go through what you have. You're strong and brave. I understand you'll find it difficult to trust people online but I will never turn my back on you. Anyways, great poem. I hope it get's through some people's thick head that they need to stop this monstrosity.

[Silent Wolf]

*hugs* Honestly, I find it a little easier to trust people online (if that makes any sense...). Yeah, I agree -- the hatred needs to stop.

[Traci]

A very soulful write, with strong emotions displayed throughout each line. It takes a lot of strength and courage to write so honestly as you have and I respect that dear poet. Your trust in humanity may waver, but there will always be those who are there to lift you up in times of need, offer love and support. Stay true to you, keep sharing and expressing.

[Silent Wolf]

Thank you.

[Stephen]

I hate those people who break the heart of beautiful ones and cause of this beautiful ones lose their faith in others. I hate it!
Everybody does't same so, I hope there'd the people too who'd want to see you in the life with smile and happiness. I wish you a nice life, hope you find much honest friends in your life.

This poem's very emotional, your all emotions are reflecting the mirror of your pain how your heart felt much ache into the soft heart. Your heart torn up cause of some jerks because they cheat on you and whatever. If your honest on your side then you'll find honesty in everyone else but remember! "Bad things always happens with good people" because good people'are born to teach them bad guys a lesson of life how beautiful a life is. So, stay beautiful!

Keep penning!

[Silent Wolf]

I hate it as well, which is part of the reason why I wrote this poem.
I have found a few good ones.
Thank you. And I think the quote is "bad things always happen to good people."

[Stephen]

Lol! Yeah...yeah, the quote is same as you wrote, I was too thinking before penning that I should write "To" instead of "With" but I used "With" don't know why but may be to make it correct by an angel.

[Silent Wolf]

Awww thanks.

[Stephen]

By the way, I loved your "Awww"
can you say once again "Awww" ..I love hearing it from angels??? lol

[Silent Wolf]

Lol. Awww.

[Stephen]

Whao! Thank you! You made me smile!
Your "Awww" is really very beautiful, it does makes me feel like am flying with an angel up in the sky holding her wings..O' I meant, holding her hands. lol

[Silent Wolf]

Lol well then...

[Stephen]

Ok! And then ... I fly with an angel and whenever I kiss her neck and say that she's very beautiful, i'd love to keep myself into her arms. She always replies, "Awww" "Awww"
And then I say, your Awww' makes my mind freak and she asked me, "how?" and I always Answere, because when the moon comes up in the sky, I always love going to bed with you under same quilt spending some time! Haha! (Kidding)
I hope I could make you laugh! :)

Take care!

[Silent Wolf]

Okay. You were kidding. Yeah, that was kind of funny. Sorry, I'm not really fond of flirting.

[Stephen]

Lol! Yeah, I was kidding but It wasn't a joke when I used to say a word "Angel" on an angel" Hha!Your an angel so be an angel! :)
I hate flirting with angels either cus I love making 'em all smile. Angels ain't made for flirting but to keep 'em all into the heart as the beats of heart which beats every second just to stay alive.
Lol!

[Silent Wolf]

Okay. sand thank you. :)

[Stephen]

"Sand" thank you means???

[Silent Wolf]

*and. Stupid auto correct.

[Stephen]

Lol! How funny! It made me chuckle!
Now this time i'd have to correct you, pretty ...
I know it could be "Hey, friend thank you!"
So, silly-bill-milly nilly, i've corrected it in my way! ;)
Ha!

[Ahmad Cox]

I really appreciated this poem. I know that it took a lot of courage to write some thing so true to yourself and to your story but it is just sad that you had to go through it in the first place.

[Silent Wolf]

Yeah. I went through it from the beginning of elementary school all the way up until my last year of middle school, and I'm still going through it and I'm a sophomore in highschool. But life isn't all lollipops and rainbows, now is it?

[Ahmad Cox]

This is true as well but I appreciate how you don't let it affect your ability to be kind instead of allowing your experiences with people to change who you ultimately are inside.

[Silent Wolf]

It does, actually. I don't want people to go through what I went through, so I try to be as nice as possible.

[Ahmad Cox]

Yes. You have a naturally empathetic personality which is a good thing. We need more people who can truly feel for people and want to help

[Silent Wolf]

Yeah. I wish there were more people, but I don't want others to suffer to realize it.

[Ahmad Cox]

For me I can understand where you are coming from because I am naturally empathetic as well and I can sense and feel people's energies and give healing energy and thoughts and even words to the people who need it.

[Coyote Poetry]

I believe we gain wisdom when we don't give a damn about the view of other people. I went to the Detroit school system. We enjoyed destroying each other. I believe made our skin harder. I learn in life. We will have few true friends. Talented people scare people. Make them feel less. A powerful poem. You made me think this late evening.
Coyote

[Bluefire]

Wow... Some people can be so horrible and stupid people listen to them. I'm sorry you had to go through that.
You can feel the emotion in this poem, the sadness and loneliness.
I hope those rumors have blown over now.
Well done gettingbyour emotions down in ink, your story.
That takes good skill. ^^

[Silent Wolf]

Nope. They made their way to my brother. They were made in elementary school and followed me all the way through high school, because my brother just came to me the other day asking if they were true.

[Bluefire]

D= Dude! Your brother believed them? He should know better. He grew up with you.

[Silent Wolf]

Step brother. He's lived with us for about 5 years now... and yes, he did...

[Bluefire]

Aw, I'm sorry. I hope you set him straight.

[Silent Wolf]

I did. If you want to know what it was, pm me. There's a lot of them...

[Bluefire]

Oh gosh, they've all gotta be awful. :C It's ok. I don't need to know if you don't wanna tell me. ^^

[Silent Wolf]

Lol alright. ^-^

[Bluefire]

Don't listen to the rumors, you know who you are and that's all that matters. :3

[Silent Wolf]

I don't listen to the rumors. I never listen to rumors. I have to hear it from the actual person.

[Bluefire]

Same for me. ^^

[Silent Wolf]

Awesome. ^-^

[Death Girl]

I know how this feels. I have been bullied my whole life and I was just walking down the street today and a group of people passed me and what they said was just terrible. I almost cut today because of them and people like them. They don't care that what their words hurt so much. I finally have friends but you never forget the faces of those who bullied you. You remeber name too unless you never knew there names. This is so relatable nicely done

[Silent Wolf]

I remember names too. But I don't put names in writing like this. And that is sad. :(

[Night]

Trust is easily lost, but hard to gain. I can't pretend to understand your pain, but trusting enough to share your poetry, your feelings, despite everything....that truly takes courage. You have earned my respect. I hope things are better now!

[Silent Wolf]

In some ways, they are, but in most ways, they aren't. I still have people ignoring and using me, but now I have friends who truly do care about me. ^-^

[Night]

I'm glad. Even though I've never really been through many of the things you've been through, I still feel a connection...probably because my little sis used to cry about being bullied all the time...Well, I give you my best wishes!:)

[Silent Wolf]

Thank you, and I hope your sister is doing better now as well. :)