After tonightA Poem by Wolf's Ink
It was after tonight that I realized
Why it was she left me here as she did Disconnected, unstrung, bewildered. With nothing but memories that were once fond Yet are now sour and acidic to my very being It was after tonight that I realized Why I could never tell her how I felt Though I'm sure she knows that I do Yet I've lost something crucial, something vital I see you with what I've lost and it makes me yearn further Tonight of all nights Shards of glass fall together and the reflection is made whole Strings tied to my masks severed from my face Past actions played before my very eyes I could only watch in painful silence The chances I had to show you properly Were times I hid in the shadows, and made a home in it Gazing outside as the light shone around you Wishing that it would cast itself on my skin And bask me in its warmth and love All the promises I've made of myself to you Whether in openess or silence prayers All of which I've broken behind you eyes and infront of your back Only to make more promises and resolves Only to break them and break under them And now, I've broken myself and someone else How could I look at you knowing what I've done I can scarcely look in mirror in the mornings as it is The gifts I had plan to lay at your feet Burn my soul and blister my fingers. Is the overwhelming doom of being exiled from home The punishment that is due me? Feelings of disownership and disdain The justice my past cries out for? Though divinely forgiven, these still claw at my sanity. It was after tonight that I realize why I lost them Once close, yet further distant by the day Opening arms now weary and cautious Can past crimes, though forgiven, ever be forgotten? Can they ever stop haunting me? I ask you for forgiveness, as well as Him Yet every time I ask it of myself I burn Each echo a stick for kindle Their eyes, a mirror to reflect the heat Each sensible tear, a lick from the fires No wonder why my heart feels so pained Why I could never fully connect with you I am too much of a wreck Too much a fool to see it Too twisted to see where everything began and ended Let me lie here and continue breaking Surrendering to you and crumble to the dust I came from Father I pray you pour yourself mercy and justice over me Throw and mold back to what I was supposed to be May I be strong enough, to surrender. © 2011 Wolf's Ink |
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Added on May 30, 2011 Last Updated on May 30, 2011 AuthorWolf's InkHouston, TXAboutI'm a young man who last year graduated from college (finally X_x), searching for what life had in store of him. Getting a BBA has yet to actually help in procuring a job, so while I'm searching I sha.. more..Writing
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